Today, I returned from a month-long stay in a psych ward for severe depression and suicide attempts. The first words my friends say to me when I call them and let them know I'm out? "Does this mean you're not gonna be so emo? 'cause that was really annoying." FML
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Thanksgiving
Questions about your love life, a burnt turkey and the cousin who knows everything: Thanksgiving, a contact sport.
Today, my housemate picked me up from the psychiatric ward, after I'd spent ten days there with a major depressive episode. She said that she thought it rather odd that I'd gotten so bad, since she'd replaced my antidepressants with homeopathic pills. FML
Today, I got out of a psych ward. I lied and said I was better, just so I could leave because it was that awful… but the truth is that I'm worse than when I went in. FML
Today, my friend broke ties with me after I came out of the hospital from attempted suicide. She was the one who called the police for me to go in there in the first place. FML
Today, I went to the local emergency room, upon recommendation of my psychiatrist, because I was depressed to the point of being suicidal. They sent me home because there were no beds available. FML
Today, after weeks of therapy for severe depression, my therapist thought it would be helpful to confess my deepest problems to my friends, to prove that it was alright to trust people. I did. They laughed. Hard. FML
Today, I feel very lost. I have been in and out of psych wards so much. It's so bad, the ER nurse knows me as "the AI coder guy" and the people in the mental health wards know me by first name, and have a "welcome back" thing each time. It's so embarrassing. FML
Today, I told my parents how grateful I am for having them in my life and that not many kids are as lucky as me. My mom texted me after I went out 10 minutes later: "Are you OK? You seemed depressed earlier." FML
Today, my family finally noticed my depression because of how quiet, down and uninterested I’ve been. They responded by harassing me for saying nothing, calling me names, and making fun of me. Hmm, I wonder why I’m depressed. FML
Today, I tried to tell my dad that I was really struggling with my mental health and didn't think I could stay alive much longer. He laughed. This comes after telling my "best friend" last week and having to wait three days for a reply. FML
Today, going to my psychiatrist's appointment for my PTSD and depression, my mother yelled about how useless I am and how I torture her existence with my "abnormalities." She told the doctor how much I've improved and become such a delight at home for her and our family. FML
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ihatewankers 0
You mean "ex-friends", right? Tell them it's their fault you were in there. Bastards.
Ashleigh_85 0
I am so sorry and I hope that now you are ok and on the road back to recovery. It annoys the hell out of me that when anybody shows any kind of emoiton they are considered emo, it's as if showing any sign of sadness, depression or any other emotion like that is wrong, its not it is an emotion and if not shown it can lead to dangerous circumstances and situations The next person who say "OMG I was so emo I cried today" I am going to SCREAM !!!
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Comments (194)
amy397123 0
No wonder you were depressed. >:|
quinnteh 0
Actually that's stupid, if you can't laugh at others how can you laugh at yourself? Not being able to laugh at yourself doesn't mean you can't laugh at others.
GreenAlbatross 3
**** you up the ass, you insensitive jerk. Putting the knife down is probably one of the hardest things a person could do. So STFU until you try it for yourself.
sarabareillesrox 0
You know depression isn't just feeling sad? It's not something you bring on yourself for being negative. It is an ILLNESS, something you can't help, that has nothing to do with your personality.
takemedown 0
Screw your friend, good job for getting help.
liketoknow 0
go kill yourself, that will show them!!!
RabenSchwartz 3
good job telling people to kill themselves, if they are clinically depressed they might actually do it. so shut the **** up
yougetmecloserto 0
Three comments is too many, now shut up.
penizulaface 0
here's a tip; think about what an immature **** you sound basically telling people that are suicidal to commit suicide. ooh and another; GO CRAWL UNDER A ROCK AND DIE, YOU RETARDED SHIT.
Ashleigh_85 0
I am so sorry and I hope that now you are ok and on the road back to recovery. It annoys the hell out of me that when anybody shows any kind of emoiton they are considered emo, it's as if showing any sign of sadness, depression or any other emotion like that is wrong, its not it is an emotion and if not shown it can lead to dangerous circumstances and situations The next person who say "OMG I was so emo I cried today" I am going to SCREAM !!!
letitbe56 0
Well, it could be MDD, but it could also be bipolar II (severe depression, but not very severe mania) or borderline personality disorder.
Starayo 1
Friends don't say shit like that about serious problems.
Jaywin 3
They probably didn't realize you actually had a real mental disorder. Some people do act "emo" and they're just doing it for attention so they just didn't know you were being legit.
neonokku 0
no one likes an emo
xcrashxloved 0
stfu no one likes you
plexico 4
I hope you are feeling better and you are following your doctor's instructions carefully. The meds they have out there these days are apparently wonderful, but it does take time to find the right one(s) and the right dose. Often they take weeks to be fully effective. Be patient and try to find good friends and family members to support. Normally, I am a snarky smart-ass, but depression is a disease that is too serious and too misunderstood to have laughs at your expense. Tell me when you are better and I will whip up a bizarre zinger just for you. But for now, hang in there and we all hope the best for you.
jasmine1259 2
plexico must really have no life if he's this well known on a site
987a654 0
haha being emo is gay just like you