Today, I returned from a month-long stay in a psych ward for severe depression and suicide attempts. The first words my friends say to me when I call them and let them know I'm out? "Does this mean you're not gonna be so emo? 'cause that was really annoying." FML
Collection
Thanksgiving
Questions about your love life, a burnt turkey and the cousin who knows everything: Thanksgiving, a contact sport.
Same thing different taste
Woo woo
Today, my housemate picked me up from the psychiatric ward, after I'd spent ten days there with a major depressive episode. She said that she thought it rather odd that I'd gotten so bad, since she'd replaced my antidepressants with homeopathic pills. FML
One flew out of the cuckoo's nest
Today, I got out of a psych ward. I lied and said I was better, just so I could leave because it was that awful… but the truth is that I'm worse than when I went in. FML
Liability
Today, my friend broke ties with me after I came out of the hospital from attempted suicide. She was the one who called the police for me to go in there in the first place. FML
Rudderless
Today, I went to the local emergency room, upon recommendation of my psychiatrist, because I was depressed to the point of being suicidal. They sent me home because there were no beds available. FML
Today, after weeks of therapy for severe depression, my therapist thought it would be helpful to confess my deepest problems to my friends, to prove that it was alright to trust people. I did. They laughed. Hard. FML
Where everybody knows your name…
Today, I feel very lost. I have been in and out of psych wards so much. It's so bad, the ER nurse knows me as "the AI coder guy" and the people in the mental health wards know me by first name, and have a "welcome back" thing each time. It's so embarrassing. FML
Mostly OK
Today, I told my parents how grateful I am for having them in my life and that not many kids are as lucky as me. My mom texted me after I went out 10 minutes later: "Are you OK? You seemed depressed earlier." FML
Support system
Today, my family finally noticed my depression because of how quiet, down and uninterested I’ve been. They responded by harassing me for saying nothing, calling me names, and making fun of me. Hmm, I wonder why I’m depressed. FML
Support system
Today, I tried to tell my dad that I was really struggling with my mental health and didn't think I could stay alive much longer. He laughed. This comes after telling my "best friend" last week and having to wait three days for a reply. FML
Today, going to my psychiatrist's appointment for my PTSD and depression, my mother yelled about how useless I am and how I torture her existence with my "abnormalities." She told the doctor how much I've improved and become such a delight at home for her and our family. FML
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ihatewankers 0
You mean "ex-friends", right? Tell them it's their fault you were in there. Bastards.
Ashleigh_85 0
I am so sorry and I hope that now you are ok and on the road back to recovery. It annoys the hell out of me that when anybody shows any kind of emoiton they are considered emo, it's as if showing any sign of sadness, depression or any other emotion like that is wrong, its not it is an emotion and if not shown it can lead to dangerous circumstances and situations The next person who say "OMG I was so emo I cried today" I am going to SCREAM !!!
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GreenAlbatross 3
Dear, you are lucky to have only gotten that for a response. I have a congenital mental disorder that has forced me to deal with thoughts of suicide, homicide, violence, nonsensical behavior and out right hallucinatory experiences to go with these lovely psychotic episodes since the day I became self-aware. When I got out of the psych ward, I didn't even have anyone I could call 'friend' to greet me. What I did have were delightfully charming classmates who tried to push me back over the edge or in a couple cases even try to finish the job. If you really think they are your friends, explain your emotions and experiences to them to help them understand. If they still give you shit for it, find new friends that aren't so pig headed. To those of you charming idiots who say that an ATTEMPT is just a cry for attention and a sign of weakness, try almost going through with it then having to live with the guilt and self-hatred of having almost betrayed and hurt everyone you care about. It's the hardest thing in the world to put down the knife and convince yourself to keep going after you've rationalized your own death already.
xofobox 0
FYL, you really need some new friends. I completely get what you're going through. I have clinical depression myself, and was in a pysch ward for awhile, and I'm still trying to get it over. It is not emo. I never cut. I didn't do anything for attention. I tried to draw attention away from it by hiding my feelings and pretending to be happy. I was ashamed to say I was depressed. All of the people making fun of people with depression are insensitive. Maybe she doesn't have an account and called herself "emogurl" like her friends called her. Stop thinking you know everything. Depression is serious. If she was in a hospital, then it's the real deal. They're trained experts, they can tell if someone is faking. OP, if you want better friends, try other people like yourself. I love my friends with normal lives, but they don't understand. My best friends are the people I met in the pysch ward, and the kids in my group therapy sessions, because they actually understand what I'm going through. I hope things go better for you.
dcstream 0
Boo ******* hoo. I've never told anyone that they're adequate or tried to be nice to them when they threaten suicide or think it's serious enough to be in a psych ward. All I tell them is it's a dumb idea and they're idiots for thinking about it. They'll just go bitch to someone else for hugs. Down the lane, not across the street.
drkwlf 0
Haha, I said the same exact thing about down the lane. Except my comment was instantly disliked, as the rest of these people are also pathetic.
dcstream 0
Multiple suicide attempts means they don't want to commit suicide and are doing it for attention. I've had two people commit suicide in my life, and they both just did it without bitching or whining. Plus, if you fail more than once at killing yourself, YDI, and I would actually support your decision.
Aaven 0
THANK YOU #99. it's about time someone else here spoke the truth. stop jumping to conclusions. and stop suggesting suicide techniques... "down the lane, not across the street!!!" you're all so ******* immature.
HotSauce_fml 0
All failed suicide attempts are solely for attention. All of them! if you fail at suicide you werent actually trying to do it, you wanted attention. YDI you annoying emo pile of fail.
manoverboard 0
**** you.
xofobox 0
Fail. I attempted suicide once. Not for attention. It didn't work cause I was taken to a hospital. I was trying to do it, but I don't have much choice in my life or death when I'm unconscious. Stop being an insensitive prick asshole.
XDNLxtlz99 0
OP: I'm sorry that you were in a depression clinic for so long, and Hun, you need friends who actually give a shit about you. PEOPLE: She was being 'emo' because she was DEPRESSED you DUMBASSES. Her 'FRIENDS' thought she would be less 'emo' because she was in a DEPRESSION HOSPITAL, which (hopefully) helped her be less depressed DEPRESSION IS A ILLNESS, IF SHE WAS BULLSHITTING, THEN WHY WAS SHE IN A HOSPITAL TO HELP SAID ILLNESS? I'M SURE SHE WOULDN'T FULL SHAT THAT ******* FAR IF SHE WAS JUST BULLSHITTING. My brother recently went through the same thing, and it was awful to see him go through it. Your friends may just not understand the extent as to which you were feeling sad, you should first make sure that they know how ******* sad you were, and then if they're still being douches, leave them. I'm glad to hear that you're still Alive, everyone deserves a chance to live hun, and everyone needs someone to talk to about what they're going through. I'm glad you either stopped from killing yourself, or that someone stopped you. Depression isn't an easy thing to go through, but if you remain positive, there's a light at the end of the tunnel that WILL pull you through.
drkwlf 0
Yeah, a light at the end of the tunnel that they should have been at after attempt #1 (:
XDNLxtlz99 0
Hey, you, yeah, **** off. Thanx! You're an insensative prick, and you being a bitch isn't helping anyone.
less_than_3 1
ydi for being an emo ass hole
XDNLxtlz99 0
You and you're an insensitive Hollister Douchebag with a perfect life who has nothing better to do then insult people who obviously have clinical depression and are going through a lot at the moment, and you being a ******* c**t and giving them shit doesn't do anything to help.
suchacreep 0
As a mild bipolar who experienced only a few episodes of acute depression, I still feel for you. Get some other friends. The ones you have don't seem to deserve the term. True friends will stand by you and be understanding and forgiving of your lowest moments, no matter the crap you pull when the depression makes you totally irrational. They'll also support you and do their best to help you get out of it. I hope you have a few of the kind, or wish you to find some very soon. Good luck to you and take care.
Nelly5767_fml 0
hahah this sounds EXACTLY like my ex boyfriend! no effn joke, i pressed on this to see who wrote it, but found out a girl did :( keep of truckin, emogurl, and just let me tell you: no one likes emo people, unless youre one also. seriously, now there are scene people, which dominate pretty much :/ be careful, imma tell you the same thing i told him. "see ya, keep your wrists clean. and your ankles, babe." xD im mean
PandaPornography 0
fake :p really really fake :p