Please don't hate yourself. This is not your fault, and you are not weak. You are a genuine, loving person. You deserve better. I hope you can heal & feel better about yourself. :)

Check out Kenneth Craig's youtube channel. Oh, and don't just always be there for someone who doesn't value you coz then she is never going to have to think about what she lost

bro word of advice, everything you think you should do in this type of situation. you need to do the opposite. women are not logical creatures and do the stupidest shit bcuz they react on emotion. best thing you can do is make her feel like you don’t need her and none of this affects you. at least then it will confuse her and she will want you for not wanting her.

Hey, but it's your real dick in her, even if she's fantasizing that it's his dick. Not a bad consolation prize, I'd say.