Today, I returned from a month-long stay in a psych ward for severe depression and suicide attempts. The first words my friends say to me when I call them and let them know I'm out? "Does this mean you're not gonna be so emo? 'cause that was really annoying." FML
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Last call, bad decisions and 3 a.m. texts you'll regret until noon. Cheers.
Today, my housemate picked me up from the psychiatric ward, after I'd spent ten days there with a major depressive episode. She said that she thought it rather odd that I'd gotten so bad, since she'd replaced my antidepressants with homeopathic pills. FML
Today, I got out of a psych ward. I lied and said I was better, just so I could leave because it was that awful… but the truth is that I'm worse than when I went in. FML
Today, my friend broke ties with me after I came out of the hospital from attempted suicide. She was the one who called the police for me to go in there in the first place. FML
Today, I went to the local emergency room, upon recommendation of my psychiatrist, because I was depressed to the point of being suicidal. They sent me home because there were no beds available. FML
Today, after weeks of therapy for severe depression, my therapist thought it would be helpful to confess my deepest problems to my friends, to prove that it was alright to trust people. I did. They laughed. Hard. FML
Today, I feel very lost. I have been in and out of psych wards so much. It's so bad, the ER nurse knows me as "the AI coder guy" and the people in the mental health wards know me by first name, and have a "welcome back" thing each time. It's so embarrassing. FML
Today, I told my parents how grateful I am for having them in my life and that not many kids are as lucky as me. My mom texted me after I went out 10 minutes later: "Are you OK? You seemed depressed earlier." FML
Today, my family finally noticed my depression because of how quiet, down and uninterested I’ve been. They responded by harassing me for saying nothing, calling me names, and making fun of me. Hmm, I wonder why I’m depressed. FML
Today, I tried to tell my dad that I was really struggling with my mental health and didn't think I could stay alive much longer. He laughed. This comes after telling my "best friend" last week and having to wait three days for a reply. FML
Today, going to my psychiatrist's appointment for my PTSD and depression, my mother yelled about how useless I am and how I torture her existence with my "abnormalities." She told the doctor how much I've improved and become such a delight at home for her and our family. FML
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ihatewankers 0
You mean "ex-friends", right? Tell them it's their fault you were in there. Bastards.
Ashleigh_85 0
I am so sorry and I hope that now you are ok and on the road back to recovery. It annoys the hell out of me that when anybody shows any kind of emoiton they are considered emo, it's as if showing any sign of sadness, depression or any other emotion like that is wrong, its not it is an emotion and if not shown it can lead to dangerous circumstances and situations The next person who say "OMG I was so emo I cried today" I am going to SCREAM !!!
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Comments (194)
K66J 0
pfffffff emo
Defiant47 0
I'd rather give unwarranted attention to a "whiny emo bitch" that deserves nothing, than risk alienating and further depressing an actually legitimate depressed person.
murderoticadam 0
I wouldn't.
Rellakan 0
Then you're an immoral idiot who I'm ashamed to call part of my species.
lilfuzz409 0
get over shit. life can always be worse
xofobox 0
You can't "get over" clinical depression. It might be she's had a perfectly normal life, but it's genetic, and something really small triggered it. If you've never experienced depression, please don't act like you know what you're talking about. It's really hard to "get over" feeling self-hatred and wanting to end your life. You don't just think "Oh, my life is actually pretty okay," and go skipping along with a smile on your face. It can take years of therapy and medication to help.
17xVampx17 0
Divineinstrument, Saying that this could only classify as clinical depression is an inaccurate insight. If you were looking at it from the point of view that it may have just been for the attention, then it could easily be a severe case of Munchausen's syndrome. Either way they need medical help but the treatment is different for each condition.
TheFifthWitness 0
Well, you're posting an FML about it, so the answer to your friends' question would be no. You're still going to be an annoying emo.
Donthavekids 0
If your suicidal, kill yourself already. It's not like it's hard to do so. As for depression being a disorder/genetic problem...Don't have kids. The only reason the world is full of people with disorders is because they're coddled. Let them die, they wont have kids who have more problems. Problem solved.
echarperouge 0
Sadly, depression is one of those things that's morbidly over diagnosed (why suggest personal therapy or exercise when popping prescriptions is so much easier?). Yes, it IS annoying to friends, because they probably have a dozen other friends "suffering" from depression.
Rellakan 0
You really need to go to hell. Unless you have been diagnosed with severe clinical depression and can manipulate your own neurochemistry through sheer willpower, you have no right to comment- depression isn't something that you can control through exercise. That is a temporary neurochemisty change, yes, but it's only slight to the chemical imbalances caused by severe clinical depression, and would not last very long. Oh, and many people that are diagnosed DO go to personal therapy, also. That doesn't make it any easier, and keeping the chemical imbalance there WILL NOT help the base problem- that you have a problem with the receptors in your brain, and that, in order to feel even remotely like most people do normally, you need to have the balance corrected.
boredboisereside_fml 0
Fag
RavishMe77 0
For all you ignorant, insensitive, "YDI, harden the **** up" assholes, go **** yourselves. It's not like you know about anything she may have been through that put her in a depressive state, so you have absolutely no right to judge. Yes, I agree people who act all emo are extremely annoying attention-seekers most of the time. But if she was in a psych ward with serious clinical depression then she's obviously really sensitive to those kinds of comments. Good friends wouldn't say something like that, so that really sucks, OP. I hope they apologized, and if not, take it as a sign that you need new friends.
Jari 0
The fact that over 9000 people (wow, this is the first time I've said that without attempting a meme) have voted YDI on this makes ME feel depressed. Get new friends.