Today, I was so disgusted by my own body, I took a shower in the dark so I wouldn't have to look at myself. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, my boyfriend walked in on me showering in the dark. When he asked why, I just told him it’s more relaxing for me. Truth is, after losing 120 lbs, I’m so disgusted by the look of my sagging skin that I can’t bear to see myself naked anymore. FML
Today, I walked into my near pitch-black bathroom and saw a person staring back at me. I woke my whole family up with my screams. The person was my reflection. FML
Today, after taking a shower, I decided to weigh myself. Curious, I peered down. I couldn't see the scale. I am fat. FML
Today, after having my bath, I realised that I've gotten so fat that I have to lift up my butt cheeks in order to dry underneath them. FML
Today, I realized that I haven’t showered in a week. I feel disgusted that I took so long to notice, it didn’t even cross my mind at all. Due to my depression, I’ve lost all motivation. FML
Today, I was on the toilet and jumped when I saw a face at the window. It was my own reflection. FML
Today, I woke up so hungover that when I went to the bathroom and caught sight of myself in the mirror, I screamed, slipped backwards, and smashed my head against the rim of my bathtub. FML
Today, I once again had to clean up a shower and bathroom covered in feces, because of client with incontinence. It smelt so bad that I couldn’t hide my reaction; the client saw my face and I could see the embarrassment on theirs. I spent the rest of the day feeling like an asshole. FML
Today, I desperately needed to pee, so I decided to confront my anxiety issues and use a public toilet. I opened the lid, only to see several huge, rancid floaters staring back at me. I had an attack, started sobbing, and pissed myself on the way home. Never again. FML
Today, I learned just how disgusted I am by my own body, when I was debating whether or not I should wear a baggy hoodie in 92 degree Fahrenheit weather. FML
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alufangirl1993 6
You need to love yourself. Everyone is different and that is okay. appreciate yourself, I believe in you.
7991ffokcufehtteg 3
Unfortunately this behavior isn't always due to weight. OP may have a mental illness or trauma that occurred to shower in the dark. I did the same thing when I was healing. It gets better OP. Whether it is due to weight or other causes, keep tearing into life with a vengeance.
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Comments (17)
404wan 19
Dont be Op! Its your body and does uncountable amazing things every day, like digest food, pump your blood around and carry you anywhere you want to go. If you dont like how your body looks, stop thinking of it as an esthetical feature and see you body for the powerful machine that it is. We are all the apex predator of this planet, no matter what we look like. An ugly lion is still a motherfucking lion!
alufangirl1993 6
You need to love yourself. Everyone is different and that is okay. appreciate yourself, I believe in you.
7991ffokcufehtteg 3
Unfortunately this behavior isn't always due to weight. OP may have a mental illness or trauma that occurred to shower in the dark. I did the same thing when I was healing. It gets better OP. Whether it is due to weight or other causes, keep tearing into life with a vengeance.
pineapplepuswah 1
That's really sad. You need to get help for your poor body image issues asap! You don't deserve to feel that way.
postpunkfunk 16
Don't be so hard on yourself OP!
pins91 27
Oh. That’s actually really sad. Why are you so disgusted by your own body?
slkeithh 14
Your body does so much for you. Truly think about the immense amount of cellular power it takes to even keep you moving, alive, able to shower. You are beautiful and amazing, no matter what you look like. If it's weight, it can be lost. If it's purely psychological, you can overcome it. A war with yourself is the biggest one you will fight but it is the absolute most rewarding victory. You can do it.
sallygee 9
that seems kind of silly. if you dislike your body that much maybe you should do something about it.
evilplatypus 39
You assume they CAN do something about it. My cousin has a disease that makes it impossible for her body to process protein. As a result, all her limbs are malformed because of non-existent muscle growth and the only way she can get calories is from fat and carbs. When one of my students started getting psoriasis, they spent years trying to find the right meds to treat it. Nothing did. Anytime they caught their reflection in something they broke down crying because she saw herself as “lizard girl.”
ThatOneLonelyAsian 31
i know how you feel
gianluca05 1
That’s a good idea tbh