Today, I realized I hate my life now. Everything changed. My friends changed. I don't like Paris. It's cold and lonely. It's nothing like Emily in Paris. I'm overstressed with uni and my future. I want a break. FML
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Today, I feel like I made the worst choice of my life and I have to pay the consequences, and I seriously feel like shit. I need help. Moving abroad to study at 30 was the worst mistake and I hate my life here. I want to go back but I lost everything back home and I don't have anything here. I'm stuck; I just want to be happy. FML
Today, I realized I freaking hate my career. I've only got through a semester, but I feel like I can't end the four years it takes. FML
Today, and everyday for the past year and a half, I've felt miserable. I took the decision to leave, not knowing that it would be hell. Now I'm stuck thinking it's good for my future, and too scared to leave. I hate it and hate everything and everyone in this place. I want to leave and I need the courage. The future terrifies me. FML
Today, I was left at home alone while my friends went on a trip to Paris I paid for. FML
Today, and since I graduated, I've realized how truly lonely I am. I haven't seen my one best friend in almost a year and I only leave the house to go to work. Not to mention I no longer enjoy things I used to love doing, making me even more sad and bored. Social anxiety and depression will do that to you. FML
Today, I miss what it’s like to be in college. I didn’t know life after graduation was so empty. FML
Today, my girlfriend broke up with me. It wouldn't be so bad if we weren't stuck rooming together for the rest of a semester that hasn't even started yet. FML
Today, I hate my life. I'm too smart, too dumb. I'm 5 year single after a horrific marriage and I can't seem to make any ground since. No one likes me. I can't find a job. I wish I would have died in the numerous car wrecks I've been in. This life has been too hard and I fucking hate it. FML
Today, I'm studying in another city. My tutor hates me because of my looks and accent. I have no friends, computer or internet outside of uni. I live in a room I rent at an old couple's house. Due to a flimsy door, I hear everything they do or say, and vice versa. I can't move from the bed. If I do, their dog, who guards my door, starts barking. FML
Today, I realized that I’m just living. Nothing I want matters. Just the same repetitive thing day after day. What must I do for things to change? FML
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Plop 17
Well, the fact your friends changed likely has little to do with Paris being a pretty terrible place. It's difficult to tell how bad things are for you and how much is just feeling down from being homesick. At the end of the day, in case you haven't tried already: try to enjoy your time here, go to your uni's foreign students association, try meeting people there (especially if you don't speak French very well, it might be much easier than meeting random French people, whose English is gonna be freaking abysmal). You'll also have an easier time relating to other exchange students' experience. Also, as a long-time expat, I'd suggest trying to find yourself a boyfriend/girlfriend (although, obviously, don't force yourself). It makes life significantly more palatable. Oh, and about the weather being trash, it'll get much nicer in about 1-2 months, and it's quite lovely in May-June. Best of luck and hope you hold up until then!
Brightside86 30
Enjoy it while it last. Once you graduate and start working 50+ hour weeks you'll realize how much time you had in uni.
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mattiagardin 15
Well well well if it ain't the consequence of your own actions
Advance 56
For life to be like in movies, you need a lot of money. Anyway, welcome to Paris.
Plop 17
Well, the fact your friends changed likely has little to do with Paris being a pretty terrible place. It's difficult to tell how bad things are for you and how much is just feeling down from being homesick. At the end of the day, in case you haven't tried already: try to enjoy your time here, go to your uni's foreign students association, try meeting people there (especially if you don't speak French very well, it might be much easier than meeting random French people, whose English is gonna be freaking abysmal). You'll also have an easier time relating to other exchange students' experience. Also, as a long-time expat, I'd suggest trying to find yourself a boyfriend/girlfriend (although, obviously, don't force yourself). It makes life significantly more palatable. Oh, and about the weather being trash, it'll get much nicer in about 1-2 months, and it's quite lovely in May-June. Best of luck and hope you hold up until then!
Brightside86 30
Enjoy it while it last. Once you graduate and start working 50+ hour weeks you'll realize how much time you had in uni.
Plop 17
Or she can live in a civilized country where people only work 35-40 hours a week to make a decent living. But sure, I guess she can live in the US too if she enjoys wasting her life to make money.
1known 31
Even if you work only 40 hours per week, you won’t have as much free time as a student. Adult life is great, but unless living all alone, you’ll hardly have time for yourself.
Plop 17
I guess you were never a student to think that? Maybe it's different in the US, but in France (and many other countries), you get an average of maybe 25-30 hours of classes per week (sometimes more), plus personal work (studying, homework, projects, etc.), plus exams. Besides, compared to the average desk job, the stress of your entire life hinging on a few exams is rather gruelingly stressful. So, yes, being a student is harder than most jobs in many countries.
randybryant799 20
Always wise to expect your life to work out like a tv show.
1known 31
If you can, going out of Paris to discover other regions could help you change your mind. Otherwise there are tons of places to visit in Paris or its surrounding region. There are many associations you can go to to meet people. If you’re Christian (or even if you’re not) look for the « aumônerie » of your university. Time is grey. But it will get better.
Nhayaa2.0 17
Well of course it's not like Emily in Paris, what did you expect? Go to some evenings of language exchange, you can find a ton of these all around Paris. You'll meet people, go to places/quartiers you wouldn't know about otherwise and you might even find out that french are actually nice and not so bad at languages, despite every cliché you may have heard.
King Jayymez Fuller 2
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Liam Rowley 17
How long have you been in Paris? It always takes time to adapt to a new place, especially if it’s really different from where you’re from. Are your friends in Paris or back home? Where are you from?