Today, I started self-harming again. My therapist keeps switching the subject when I try to bring it up, and my best friend has called me attention-seeking and selfish so many times in the past year that I’m too scared to ask for her support. I have nobody else to talk to. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I’m mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted, and I feel like the only person I can talk to who actually listens is my therapist. FML
Today, my friend, knowing my mental health is really bad right now, decided to yell out the fact I have an eating disorder, and how she never sees me eat ever, then started to talk about self-harm and how she would never do it despite what she has gone through. All while side-eyeing me when talking to other people. FML
Today, I'm a recovering self-harm addict (yes, that’s a thing). I’ve been doing well for years, but lately I’ve had intense urges to hurt myself by biting or scratching. I know the urges would go away if I acted on them, but I don’t want to hurt my family by hurting myself. FML
Today, my therapist broke up with me after almost 3 years. I can’t pay people to listen to my problems. FML
Today, I tried therapy to talk about my problems without feeling like i am harassing anyone. After messaging a therapist for over 2 hours, I felt way better and finally understood. It turned out I'm in such a bad mental state that I'm a danger to myself and others. Police were called by the therapist. FML
Today, and every time I meet a new therapist for support, I’m told that my issues are out of their scope of practice, and I get referred to someone who’s supposed to more experienced, and then get told the same thing. I’m too fucked up to even get the therapy I need to get better. FML
Today, my parents want nothing to do with me because I can’t stop spending money. Buying junk food is the one thing that makes me happy, and I’ve been to countless therapists and tried every medication. FML
Today, my counsellor said that my venting needs to stop with this session, and that I needed to have goals towards which she can help me go. But I'm so lonely and just wanted to talk to someone. So now, a person won't take money from me to listen to me. FML
Today, I finally shared some of my insecurities and difficulties I’m experiencing with a close friend. The response was great, they listened, and gave advice. Later I met another friend, who said that they’re here for me. Everyone was just trying to help, but now almost everyone I know knows. I feel worse than before. FML
Today, I went to therapy. I started talking about my childhood and my life. By the time the session was over my therapist was crying. FML
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Top comments
RichardPencil 32
He who pays the piper calls the tune. When you pay a therapist, you choose the subject. If you want to discuss Olympic curling, then they gotta ******' discuss Olympic curling!
TomeDr 25
Time for a new therapist. They’re there to help YOU, not to listen to themselves talk.
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RichardPencil 32
He who pays the piper calls the tune. When you pay a therapist, you choose the subject. If you want to discuss Olympic curling, then they gotta ******' discuss Olympic curling!
TomeDr 25
Time for a new therapist. They’re there to help YOU, not to listen to themselves talk.
Lydmyers 9
I have been there, and I hope you are okay.
Chazzster 32
Not every therapist is competent or a good fit with each patient’s needs. You must change therapists because this one is not helping you.
Brandy Plapp 17
I'm so sorry you're not getting any support when you need it most. I am clean 8 years from self harming and it can be done but only from excellent mental health providers to teach you coping skills. I too recommend changing therapist as many times as necessary until you feel supported and make sure you tell them you want to learn coping skills. You can talk till your blue in the face and it won't change anything. Feel free to message me if I can help.
randybryant799 21
Find another therapist.
imawesome82 3
You can talk to me. My name is Jennifer young-Owens on fb… look me up. You need a new therapist ASAP…
SteelyAnt 4
Sounds like you need a new best friend and therapist
AnthonyM1914 4
You need to go to the hospital. I hate to say it, but you do. It's the only way to help break the habit and I only know that because that's how I stopped