Today, I'm a recovering self-harm addict (yes, that’s a thing). I’ve been doing well for years, but lately I’ve had intense urges to hurt myself by biting or scratching. I know the urges would go away if I acted on them, but I don’t want to hurt my family by hurting myself. FML
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Today, I started self-harming again. My therapist keeps switching the subject when I try to bring it up, and my best friend has called me attention-seeking and selfish so many times in the past year that I’m too scared to ask for her support. I have nobody else to talk to. FML
Today, I actually feel good about my decisions and my life. I've even started running to improve my health, and recover from self harming. My girlfriend is convinced I'm running to hurt myself, and won't let me near any health food or the treadmill. FML
Today, I’m trying to avoid yet another psych ward admission, but my anxiety is so bad that I’m constantly on the verge of a panic attack, and my depression is to the point where I’m tempted to stab myself in the neck with every sharp object I see. FML
Today, my mom took away my medication. She's afraid I'll get "hooked". The medication is anti-anxiety pills. I have horrible anxiety attacks that sometimes cause me to scratch my arms until they bleed. FML
Today, I found out that my anxiety disorder has escalated to where I now scratch and pick at my face while asleep. Now I get to sleep with oven mitts taped to my hands. FML
Today, I finally kicked my awful nail-biting habit. All it took was a fractured jaw. I haven't been able to chew anything for two weeks. FML
Today, I had a rubber band around my wrist for too long, and it ended up leaving faint red marks around my wrist. My mom saw them, thought they were scars, and is now convinced I'm a cutter, "like the ones I've seen on the news," and won't believe my story. FML
Today, after a lifelong struggle with suicidal depression and heroin abuse, I've been clean for six months. This is the healthiest I've been in ages, and naturally, I've gained weight. My whole family constantly talks about how I’ve let myself go, and how I should go back on heroin to be thin. FML
Today, my parents want nothing to do with me because I can’t stop spending money. Buying junk food is the one thing that makes me happy, and I’ve been to countless therapists and tried every medication. FML
Today, after struggling with an eating disorder and hiding my symptoms for months, I got up the courage to tell my mom that I need help. Then she asked if an ice cream would make me feel better. FML
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BurnInDemonFire 35
If you were in therapy but have stopped it might be time to go back. If the therapy is ongoing let your therapist know that your impulses are starting to manifest again. And try doing something else when you feel the urge to self-harm, like going for a walk.
anonymous17 19
i really hope if they do this they wont be sent to somewhere like a mental hospital if they tell their therapist though (unless thats what they need of course). its just that i notice mental hospitals tend to mistreat their patients, but i agree on the second thing thats really good advice
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BurnInDemonFire 35
If you were in therapy but have stopped it might be time to go back. If the therapy is ongoing let your therapist know that your impulses are starting to manifest again. And try doing something else when you feel the urge to self-harm, like going for a walk.
anonymous17 19
i really hope if they do this they wont be sent to somewhere like a mental hospital if they tell their therapist though (unless thats what they need of course). its just that i notice mental hospitals tend to mistreat their patients, but i agree on the second thing thats really good advice
mcubed1220 4
Hey, keep up the good work. As an addict in recovery, I know that my clean time is not what makes me stronger or smarter than my addiction - it is seeking help BEFORE I pick up again. I hope you find some people who are in your corner to help you in this difficult time.