Today, I returned from a month-long stay in a psych ward for severe depression and suicide attempts. The first words my friends say to me when I call them and let them know I'm out? "Does this mean you're not gonna be so emo? 'cause that was really annoying." FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, my housemate picked me up from the psychiatric ward, after I'd spent ten days there with a major depressive episode. She said that she thought it rather odd that I'd gotten so bad, since she'd replaced my antidepressants with homeopathic pills. FML
Today, I got out of a psych ward. I lied and said I was better, just so I could leave because it was that awful… but the truth is that I'm worse than when I went in. FML
Today, my friend broke ties with me after I came out of the hospital from attempted suicide. She was the one who called the police for me to go in there in the first place. FML
Today, I went to the local emergency room, upon recommendation of my psychiatrist, because I was depressed to the point of being suicidal. They sent me home because there were no beds available. FML
Today, after weeks of therapy for severe depression, my therapist thought it would be helpful to confess my deepest problems to my friends, to prove that it was alright to trust people. I did. They laughed. Hard. FML
Today, I feel very lost. I have been in and out of psych wards so much. It's so bad, the ER nurse knows me as "the AI coder guy" and the people in the mental health wards know me by first name, and have a "welcome back" thing each time. It's so embarrassing. FML
Today, I told my parents how grateful I am for having them in my life and that not many kids are as lucky as me. My mom texted me after I went out 10 minutes later: "Are you OK? You seemed depressed earlier." FML
Today, my family finally noticed my depression because of how quiet, down and uninterested I’ve been. They responded by harassing me for saying nothing, calling me names, and making fun of me. Hmm, I wonder why I’m depressed. FML
Today, I tried to tell my dad that I was really struggling with my mental health and didn't think I could stay alive much longer. He laughed. This comes after telling my "best friend" last week and having to wait three days for a reply. FML
Today, going to my psychiatrist's appointment for my PTSD and depression, my mother yelled about how useless I am and how I torture her existence with my "abnormalities." She told the doctor how much I've improved and become such a delight at home for her and our family. FML
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ihatewankers 0
You mean "ex-friends", right? Tell them it's their fault you were in there. Bastards.
Ashleigh_85 0
I am so sorry and I hope that now you are ok and on the road back to recovery. It annoys the hell out of me that when anybody shows any kind of emoiton they are considered emo, it's as if showing any sign of sadness, depression or any other emotion like that is wrong, its not it is an emotion and if not shown it can lead to dangerous circumstances and situations The next person who say "OMG I was so emo I cried today" I am going to SCREAM !!!
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Vaistin 0
It always stuns me how people can FAIL to kill themselves.. I am sure since you were/are an annoying emo bitch you could have politely asked one of your friends to give you a helping hand in your own death, I am positive they would have abided such an request.
ZeFlyGuy 0
Looks like you need some new friends.
Zizzy_Lubrig 0
Hun I've been ther don't feel bad =}
gblossom94 0
Stay strong. Don't self harm, I know what that bullshit is like and I've been thru it myself. Have fun and be yourself!
briesandwich 0
I completely agree with #327, stay strong m'love. You have to pull through. =]
XxCrazi4LovexX 0
i seriously know how you feel 2 months ago i got out of the phyc ward for the same reason as you severe depression and suicide attepts im having trouble getting through it too but the only thing i can say is dont care about what people say about you when you get out im the talk of my little town right know ...you'll be ok =] i hope you get through it all -14,XxCrazzi4LovexX
XxCrazi4LovexX 0
i seriously know how you feel 2 months ago i got out of the phyc ward for the same reason as you severe depression and suicide attepts im having trouble getting through it too but the only thing i can say is dont care about what people say about you when you get out im the talk of my little town right know ...you'll be ok =] i hope you get through it all -14,XxCrazzi4LovexX
NDnation44 0
SUICIDE FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!
Kolli29 0
alot of you people I really dont understand. how can you be so disrespectful and ignorant, you've never been in her situation, cuz if you had been you wouldnt be being so cruel and immature. Suicide isnt funny, especially when it was serious, and you joke about it? saying suicide fail, and im suprised you have friends, and you must have been no fun to be around? that sucks to hear, did you not read what she said, some of you are just repeating what her friends said which is the reason she posted an FML. I'm sorry all these people are being so disrespectful and ignorant, ignore them, you are so much stronger than any of them for getting through what you got through, I know how hard it is, ive been there. These people don't know how to handle a serious situation that they dont understand so they make fun of it. Hang in there, I'm with #330. I hope you get through it all. Praying for you. =]
SeaGhile 0
Completely disgusting. Your friends are incredibly insensitive. As a fellow depressive, it saddens me that the false stereotype of 'emo' completely trivialises a very serious condition. Secede from your 'friends' immediately. -SeaGhile