Today, I realized how bad my depression has gotten when I caught myself fantasizing about suicide while having sex with my husband. FML
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A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, after being severely depressed for a week, I was having sex with my boyfriend when got so anxious that I threw up. FML
Today, I realized that I'm so depressed that I can't even watch porn without getting upset about how I can't get laid. FML
Today, I realized that sex with my husband has gotten so boring that I'd rather fake an orgasm than let him continue. FML
Today, I masturbated 3 times to the thought of my wife because we don't have sex anymore. FML
Today, I realised just how cripplingly self-conscious I am, when I couldn't even fantasise about having sex with a guy without feeling shy and insecure about my body. FML
Today, I realized that due to my anti-depressants, I can no longer orgasm. At. All. Which depresses me more. FML
Today, and for months now, the meds that stop me from killing myself have killed my sex drive. My boyfriend, being stressed at work, initially assured me that his was also non existent and not to worry. I found out he's been wanking every day and hiding it from me so I don't feel bad. Now I know, I feel fucking awful. FML
Today, I realized my marriage makes me feel like I'm just passing time until death. FML
Today, I realized just how much my bad sex life has started affecting me, when after not being able to climax from masturbating, I instinctively faked an orgasm. FML
Today, I had a panic attack because my boyfriend thought it would be sexy to choke me in the middle of sex. FML
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Dom_Olivares 12
Talk it out with your husband or someone else!
Eliseopwns 22
We all have problems. At least you know and acknowledge yours.
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Comments (181)
ro1lola 5
OP, please try to get some help! Here's somewhere to start: the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK. I'm a hotline counselor and sometimes it really just helps to talk to a stranger for a bit (callers opinions, not mine).
lionhardt13 10
Please talk to a counselor about the depression.
Shaowolf 17
Wtf, this isnt an fml. This is just f*cked up! I would really look up a psychologist! (If you wasn't already)
snackswell37 4
That's ****** up.
curiositykitten 4
Stop making this ONLY about sex and realize the focal point of the FML is about depression. She didn't want to kill herself because the sex is bad, her depression is so bad that not even sex could pull her away from suicidal thoughts. Chin up, OP. I've been there. It's a long, hard road out of hell but it's worth it every time.
Cas547 8
Hey, depression is tough, but you'll get through it. It can be overcome.
foxy_grampa 19
Have you tried talking to him about this?
Burning65 5
I have depression too OP! I know it's really rough but trust me you can get through it. If it gets bad enough there are some places to go to that will help you. I went for 3 days and it was the best experience ever. You got this OP it's all gonna be ok
ashleyylove3 22
Sounds like you need a psychiatrist and a therapist ASAP. Sex should be more enjoyable than thinking about suicide. Get help.
irishmaiden78 23
This isn't just about sex. This is a lot deeper than that.
Xombie86 9
You really need to speak with someone. Suicide is not something to be taken lightly...