It gets different. I think the mantra "it gets better" is a lie. Things change and sometimes for the better, but sometimes for the worse. You really can't say your present life represents your future.

It’s gonna be like that if you think like that. Delete that youtube account. The algoritm is like a whirlpool. Things will never change if you think of yourself that way and people wil avoid you if you carry this aura with you. Don’t be desperate for companionship. I don’t know your situation, but I can tell you that new people will not reach out to you if there’s a sad rainy cloud hanging above your head. Pursue what you want to be and people will pursue you. Anyway, I’m done with preaching. Best of luck