I think this is one of those situations where you don't know how you'll react until its time to react lol.

proud to be helpful, how very shameful and alwhile handing your child off to a stranger then questioning your trust in others, tsk tsk

In an ideal society - you *should* be able to trust people enough to feel secure in your child's safety when assisting in an emergency. I'd say that while it could have been dangerous, you still acted courageously and selflessly. The reality hitting that it very well could have been dangerous will cause the fear and second guessing. These things are natural 💜 Mark it as a learning opportunity and guaranteed you'll have heightened situational awareness and reaction should a similar event occur in the future. Hope that makes some sense and make sure to hydrate, eat, and rest :)

You, (someone capable of helping during an emergency), freed yourself from a burden (your child) by giving them to someone less capable during an emergency (the babysitter) to provide help. Where's the ****** down side?

This was...

It sounds like you're trying to make a problem where there isn't one.

Be proud of the good person you are. A good role model.