Today, despite working out and training in combat sports routinely as a lifestyle, I continue to have nightmares of those who bullied me in middle school in the past. These people can no longer torture me in real life, but still can in my dreams. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, it's been months since I dropped out of college to escape constantly being bullied and being miserable. Ever since then, I've been having recurring nightmares with the same people bullying me, after which I wake up crying and feeling miserable. My brain is a douchebag. FML
Today, I had my first trauma nightmare, about my classmates who had drugs planted on them so the police officers could abuse them for being queer. It's been 16 years since high school. FML
Today, while having a bad dream, I went to punch a bully in the face. Mid-swing I wake up and punch the solid concrete wall to my basement bedroom FML
Today, the person who bullied me throughout my childhood eventually resulting in me going to therapy and switching schools became my boss. On top of that, he refers to me by the insulting nickname he called me during childhood. It's good to see that growing up hasn't changed him at all. FML
Today, I woke up again from another nightmare about my university's hazing fallout. Every time I see their faces in these dreams, I remember how they got away with everything, including trying to end us as they searched for the first year snitch. FML
Today, I finally confronted my bully. Too bad it was at my high school reunion and he beat the shit out of me. FML
Today, I had a nightmare in which my abuser came back into my life… but with gothy makeup. FML
Today, I had a dream in which I was arguing with my mom. In the dream, she threatened to hit me, and I told her I'd do it myself. I reared back and knocked the crap out of myself. I'm awake now, and my jaw still hurts. FML
Today, after training for six months in martial arts, I was ready to stand up against my bully. When he approached me. I found out the hard way he’s been doing martial arts since he was six. I didn’t know that. FML
Today, I had a dream in which I was being mugged. I started fighting the muggers off, while in reality, my fist smacked my wife in the face. Now she has a black eye, nobody believes my story, and they think I'm a wife beater. FML
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TwoBytesCarley 27
Sounds like you need to see a professional therapist, preferably one who deals with healing trauma (EMDR, CBT, CPT). Trauma physically changes the brain and a professional can help repair it. If you’re feeling like this has been hounding you, disrupting your sleep and/or impacting decisions you make today, those are all initial symptoms of trauma. Get help now, ignoring it only makes it worse in the long run.
RichardPencil 32
Just go over to their houses and kick their asses in real life. The cops will be okay with delayed payback. That'll fix the nightmares for sure.
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RichardPencil 32
Just go over to their houses and kick their asses in real life. The cops will be okay with delayed payback. That'll fix the nightmares for sure.
cuz803 46
LMAOOO!!! I wish!
TwoBytesCarley 27
Sounds like you need to see a professional therapist, preferably one who deals with healing trauma (EMDR, CBT, CPT). Trauma physically changes the brain and a professional can help repair it. If you’re feeling like this has been hounding you, disrupting your sleep and/or impacting decisions you make today, those are all initial symptoms of trauma. Get help now, ignoring it only makes it worse in the long run.
Plop 17
Actually, what OP describes sounds an awful lot like full-blown PTSD. Regardless, yes, OP needs to find himself a good shrink, assuming he hasn't already.
ChipBoundary 9
CBT and CPT are utter bullshit and any credible therapist will tell you that. As someone that went through exactly what they did and probably worse, it sounds like they just need to learn to let go. I'm willing to bet this person doesn't let go of anything at all.
Jonkbaby 23
I would seek out a professional to help you through this, it sounds like this part of your soul wants to be healed and you deserve that healing, friend
cuz803 46
Thank you ❤
IHaveThePower 18
Bad news: You have PTSD. Good news: It's treatable, and your insurance probably has a list of therapists you can work with.