Today, I suffered a mental breakdown. I told my roommates about it, and they decided to throw a very loud party while I was sobbing in my room, unable to sleep. My Xanax prescription ran out, I have no more sick days, and I have to wake up in two hours to work a ten hour day. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Same thing different taste
Royal flush
Today, I'm exhausted. My antidepressants ran out, making me overreact to everything. My friends dragged me into really childish drama, resulting in me ditching them. Then my work laptop broke on the most important day of my project. Then I got my first break from work in about a year… and woke up with COVID. FML
Zzzzzzzz
Today, after a week of insomnia, I finally managed to fall asleep. Thirty minutes later, my friends decided to bang on my door, yelling at me to wake up and party with them. I'm now wide awake and hallucinating from lack of sleep. FML
Trashy housemates
Today, I really upset my housemates when I opened my bedroom door to find them - and their friends - doing meth. At 2 a.m. on a Monday. I didn't even say anything, but it's drama and I just want to sleep. I start back at work in 4 hours. FML
I don't need a Xanny to feel better
Today, my psychiatrist prescribed Xanax. I thought that was a little extreme and that my anxiety wasn't bad enough for that. Within the next hour, I had 2 panic attacks. I guess I'm worse off than I thought. FML
Today, I went to the hospital for taking to many anxiety meds cause of a panic attack over my finals. They decided the best way to fix this will be to involuntarily commit me to psychiatric treatment for 72 hours... missing all my finals. FML
Zonked out
Today, I got my ass kicked by my boss at work. Why? Because I missed my shift on Saturday, because I slept through my alarms and the phone calls from my co-workers, and I woke up three hours later in a state of panic. This is all because of a medicine I'm on for migraines. FML
Spooked
Today, I woke up in a complete daze. It took me a few minutes to realize what had happened. Apparently my sleepwalking problems have returned, only this time I managed to overdose myself with Nyquil. As a result, I slept for fourteen hours, wet my sheets, and lost my job. FML
Today, I woke up after taking the new sleeping pills I was prescribed for my insomnia. I slept for 12 hours and had 5 missed calls from my boss. FML
Support system
Today, I had a nervous breakdown. My life has been going down the drain and I called my boyfriend for comfort. I was crying my eyes out, finally getting everything off of my chest that has been bothering me. I thought it was quiet because he was listening closely. I was wrong. He fell asleep. FML
Ambien nights
Today, my roommates told me about all the stupid and embarrassing things I did last night, none of which I remember. Drunk out of my mind? No, I just tried a new sleeping pill after weeks of insomnia. I still barely slept. FML
Top comments
cmc9540 4
That sucks I know what it's like to have a mental breakdown it's not fun. Your friends should be more understanding. And to the person who posted get over it and stop complaining you must not suffer from real depression. It's not just being sad it's much worse than that sometimes you can barely get out of bad even with medication. Don't judge other people until you have been through their situation
paprikacha 9
And THAT's when I stopped reading the comments posted on FMLs. Because it's illegal to show empathy, be sympathetic, or even be just a little less of an ass than you could possibly be on the internet. Because the OP taking Xanax obviously means she's junkie, right? Or the OP crying in her room for one night definitely means that she's not going to do anything about her situation, and just continue to whine about it. Human beings are all the same -- everyone handles breakdowns, depression, and trauma the same way, and people that are a less skilled at coping just suck and are not deserving of a break. Hell, if you're even depressed you're defective. Because we automatically know everything about this girl's life, and can safely conclude that she deserves everything she gets due to her inability to take care of her own life. Right? Yes? Okay. Just so we're ******* clear.
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letitbe56 0
Yo, people, if she's taking Xanax she has anxiety, not depression. Get it right.
letitbe56 0
OP- The term breakdown really suggests that you need to be hospitalized. If you stayed in your room and then were able to calm down enough to write this, I doubt it was a breakdown. At worst, you had a panic attack. That being said, if you're missing that much work and relying that much on your meds but are still having episodes like this, it should be a huge wake-up call: your treatment isn't working. If you're not already involved in psychotherapy, find a good therapist now. Driving away social support is actually associated with a number of cognitive symptoms, and if you don't address these, your recovery will be very difficult. Moreover, in therapy, you can learn relaxation strategies that can help make it easier to face the idea of going to work, etc. Anxiety is one of the hardest mental disorders to treat, but things won't get better unless you try.
LejlaSr 0
if you really had a mental breakdown, and not just over reacting, try changing you're roommates, maybe they were the problem in the first place..
nd131262 0
I have to agree with most other people, you are probably like 90% of people who have problems, difference is you cry about it and declare yourself "depressed". The girl who mentioned whining probably said it best, the rest of us just don't cry so much.
letitbe56 0
I actually disagree with the kind of therapy you're suggesting. Psychodynamic therapies, like psychoanalysis, don't have much success with anxiety disorders. Plus, they're expensive and last a long time. I would suggest maybe a mindfulness based therapy, with some metacognitive and behavioral components. Dialectical behavioral therapy is good for anxiety, and tends to combine those elements. These kinds of therapies can produce lasting results in just 6-8 sessions as well, making them very cost-effective for the client.
nd131262 0
Also, xanax is for anxiety not depression so get yourself straight, and switch to all natural marijuana. Or if you really are as crazy as you claim, lithium.
cmac86 24
man, I'm sorry to hear about this, it really sucks. but I do know how you feel. I've had breakdowns before and horrible roommates, and it truly is the worst feeling ever. you're in hell, and I hope that you can climb out of it soon.
skyeyez9 25
look for quieter roommates. Perhaps some introverted nerdy ones. That way there are no parties and they keep to themselves.
technobutterfly 0
I hate it when people don't take depression seriously and think that the victim is at fault. It's not their fault they have depression. No one wants it. And OP, Xanex is an extremely strong prescription, it can be deadly. Be careful.
Intellectualist 0
Nobody said they want it, at all. It might just do some good to at least try to do something about it, rather than bitching about your life on the internet.
tiger411 0
THE WHOLE POINT OF THE SITE IS TO WHINE! Look at the title people! Also, it's "whining" not "whinging." And I understand that at the wise age of 18 you feel that you know exactly what everyone else goes through and exactly how life should be handled. How exactly is she supposed to "do something about this," with "this" being her depression and anxiety? Those two go hand in hand. It's not like she can't be anxious because she's depressed. She didn't say she used all of her sick days because of her depression/anxiety. Maybe she had the freakin swine flu and missed some days. Plus, mental issues can cause physical symptoms. It's not like you go into a doctor's office, say, "Oh hey, I'm depressed," and they give you some magical pills and you're cured. She may have a lifelong affliction and is trying to find what medication works. I don't think it's too much for her to ask that her roommates be a little more understanding. Seriously, people like you make me sick. You think that because she posted on this website, she's whining and not trying to improve her life. Obviously, by forgetting to refill her prescription, it's an invitation for her roommates to be shitheads. You shouldn't assume everyone's condition is like yours, and they should adapt the same way that you do. Maybe you're a stronger person with a better support system. Maybe she has a worse case than you do. But for you, a person who has been through this, to pretty much tell someone who is going through a hard time to "walk it off" is negating any effort being made to help people with mental problems. It's not like it's her fault. It's your brain's chemistry, and that's a little bit complicated, and takes more than just a party to fix it.
Intellectualist 0
My dear, I'm British, we call it whinging here, for a start. The fact that she has run out of sick days suggests she has had a lot of time off, and not just swine flue. The fact that she has obviously been prescribed these pills and has allowed herself to run out is careless, it has happened to everyone on these types of medication before, maybe this is the OP's first time, but hopefully after this, she won't let herself run out again, because if she needs them, she will feel awful for not taking them, and it makes things 10 times worse. I'm not saying partying will fix it, I'm saying that feeling sorry for yourself is no way to make yourself better, and complaining on a website isn't either. I've always thought myself to be fairly weak when it comes to emotion, but I've had a long time to work on putting on a brave face, but I've tried since the very start of being diagnosed to be brave, and some people don't even try, I guess I just don't understand that, because hey, my logic is that if an 8 year old can do it, I'm damn sure an older person who understands it a hell of a lot better can too. I'm not saying I'm wise, I just know things about this kind of situation, and I don't believe that complaining on the internet, or even mentioning depression on the internet will make anything better. You just get called an attention seeker, when in fact you actually need to seriously talk to someone, so you're putting yourself under unneccessary stress. Not everyone is the same, but I just don't think telling the people on here is a good thing for a person's mental health, because if you're insecure, people who comment on these things aren't sympathetic, and it's hard to be really, when you know things CAN be done, it's just a question of trying, getting up out of that computer chair, and trying to do something with your life, and get yourself a sense of meaning. I know I've come across as mean, or cold, whatever, but I havn't intended to at all. I know how serious depression is, I've been surrounded by it since birth, so I just want to help, I just think that people should keep their chin up, even when it's hard to do so, because it is possible, you just have to try, or think about it. Sorry for the essay.
Raiderwrstler65 0
hahahaha your roommates crack me up. kudos to them
Cristaderzi 0
Until health care is fixed there us no "help" I say maybe if she keeps busy As wel thousands die everyday why should wacker emo be special???!!!!! She be all right as life goes on and on... Whether or not hers physically does...