Today, I suffered a mental breakdown. I told my roommates about it, and they decided to throw a very loud party while I was sobbing in my room, unable to sleep. My Xanax prescription ran out, I have no more sick days, and I have to wake up in two hours to work a ten hour day. FML
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Today, I'm exhausted. My antidepressants ran out, making me overreact to everything. My friends dragged me into really childish drama, resulting in me ditching them. Then my work laptop broke on the most important day of my project. Then I got my first break from work in about a year… and woke up with COVID. FML
Today, after a week of insomnia, I finally managed to fall asleep. Thirty minutes later, my friends decided to bang on my door, yelling at me to wake up and party with them. I'm now wide awake and hallucinating from lack of sleep. FML
Today, I really upset my housemates when I opened my bedroom door to find them - and their friends - doing meth. At 2 a.m. on a Monday. I didn't even say anything, but it's drama and I just want to sleep. I start back at work in 4 hours. FML
Today, my psychiatrist prescribed Xanax. I thought that was a little extreme and that my anxiety wasn't bad enough for that. Within the next hour, I had 2 panic attacks. I guess I'm worse off than I thought. FML
Today, I went to the hospital for taking to many anxiety meds cause of a panic attack over my finals. They decided the best way to fix this will be to involuntarily commit me to psychiatric treatment for 72 hours... missing all my finals. FML
Today, I got my ass kicked by my boss at work. Why? Because I missed my shift on Saturday, because I slept through my alarms and the phone calls from my co-workers, and I woke up three hours later in a state of panic. This is all because of a medicine I'm on for migraines. FML
Today, I woke up in a complete daze. It took me a few minutes to realize what had happened. Apparently my sleepwalking problems have returned, only this time I managed to overdose myself with Nyquil. As a result, I slept for fourteen hours, wet my sheets, and lost my job. FML
Today, I woke up after taking the new sleeping pills I was prescribed for my insomnia. I slept for 12 hours and had 5 missed calls from my boss. FML
Today, I had a nervous breakdown. My life has been going down the drain and I called my boyfriend for comfort. I was crying my eyes out, finally getting everything off of my chest that has been bothering me. I thought it was quiet because he was listening closely. I was wrong. He fell asleep. FML
Today, my roommates told me about all the stupid and embarrassing things I did last night, none of which I remember. Drunk out of my mind? No, I just tried a new sleeping pill after weeks of insomnia. I still barely slept. FML
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cmc9540 4
That sucks I know what it's like to have a mental breakdown it's not fun. Your friends should be more understanding. And to the person who posted get over it and stop complaining you must not suffer from real depression. It's not just being sad it's much worse than that sometimes you can barely get out of bad even with medication. Don't judge other people until you have been through their situation
paprikacha 9
And THAT's when I stopped reading the comments posted on FMLs. Because it's illegal to show empathy, be sympathetic, or even be just a little less of an ass than you could possibly be on the internet. Because the OP taking Xanax obviously means she's junkie, right? Or the OP crying in her room for one night definitely means that she's not going to do anything about her situation, and just continue to whine about it. Human beings are all the same -- everyone handles breakdowns, depression, and trauma the same way, and people that are a less skilled at coping just suck and are not deserving of a break. Hell, if you're even depressed you're defective. Because we automatically know everything about this girl's life, and can safely conclude that she deserves everything she gets due to her inability to take care of her own life. Right? Yes? Okay. Just so we're ******* clear.
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PhillyFox 0
Not an FML. This is everyday life. Learn how to handle it.
PhillyFox 0
Eh maybe that wasn't the right comment. I'm always really cynical about clinical depression/anxiety. Just the fact that you told your roommates about it and sat in your room and cried tells me that you're looking for a pity party. And the fact that you used all your sick days (probably for your "breakdowns") makes me think you just need to learn how to deal. Maybe you should've went out and joined your roomies for a while instead of sitting in your room feeling sorry for yourself.
Intellectualist 0
That's kind of what I meant, it looks like they're fishing for sympathy, rather than doing anything.
kittenmeow 0
boooo ******* hooo! some of us don't even get sick days, other people don't even have a job!! Some of us are so ****** up but cant afford Xanax let alone a doctor to prescribe it.. listen to pearl jam: just breathe !!! Count your blessings and stop whining!
madderakka 0
If you had suffered a mental breakdown, you would be in an institution or the ER, not posting on FML. And if your friends are throwing a party , they are either assholes or have heard you complain so much they are immune to it. Either way, apparently your meds aren't working, so get off the net and go talk to your doctor.
Intellectualist 0
No, mental breakdowns aren't quite that serious. Breakdowns don't mean hospital, or being sectioned. It's just an awful time for someone. I agree that they shouldn't be posting on FML though.
letitbe56 0
What makes it hard is that "breakdown" isn't really a clinical term, so there's no good way to know what someone means by it. I, for one, wouldn't have called a night crying in her room a breakdown, as awful as it probably was for her. The term "breakdown" I think naturally suggests that she needs to take some time off from her life to focus on dealing with her mental state and getting back to a place where she can function in her normal routine, and for most people that involves some kind of institutionalization.
AnaRosa 0
if I were you i'd rampage that party naked.-__- make them feel uncomfortable and leave...
xiambam 4
You're retarded. If I had a mental breakdown and was sobbing in my room and needed medication, the last thing I would do is get on FML and complain about it -especially if I had to go "get up in 2 hours to work a 10 hour shift". According to this post you're half crazy as it is..I'd try to work a long day without sleep if I were you, too. And don't try to blame your lack of sleep on your roommates' party. You work, don't you have a car? Go sleep in it or drive to a parent's or friend's house if it's possible. Or, instead of wasting time on here, go see a therapist. YDI
fwongraven 10
Inconsiderate housemates do stink and I thoroughly understand the annoyance, but the term 'mental breakdown' seems to be bandied about a lot these days. Frankly, if you're up and posting on FML then it's probably not a breakdown and you need to have some respect for the people who actually HAVE had one.
tomandhicky 0
you should down a pint of 'harden the **** up' give me a call sometime 07764145832
ozymandias_fml 0
*yawn* another drama queen on FML. Whoooooo. Why don't you just grow up and act like an adult? Presumably you are not a child (roommates, not parents), so why insist on acting like one?
angel1495 0
Oh my God, people. Very few of you seem to get it. 1. This website is called F*** My Life. The ENTIRE purpose of posting on here is to share with other people something really shitty that happened to you that qualifies your life as being f***ed up [not necessarily your entire life, but your life as it is now]. So to those of you saying "OP should stop getting on here to whine, and instead she should do something about it", did you ever think that maybe she IS doing something about it and that coming to FML wasn't the ONLY thing she's done since this incident?? 2. It is ENTIRELY possible that she didn't have a chance to go refill her meds before they ran out. Same thing has happened with me. I don't have a car or reliable means of transportation, so there have been times I haven't been able to get my BC on time. 3. Also, just because the OP ran out of sick days DOES NOT mean she used them when she wasn't actually sick!! I am prone to illness so I understand having to miss class or work because of being sick. It doesn't happen terribly often, but usually when I get sick I will get one thing and once I'm better I immediately come down with something else. I'm sure I'm not the only one with a shitty immune system. Normally I don't rant like this on the internet, but as someone who does have some mental issues [depression related], I understand what it's like to not want to do anything but sit in your room and just cry it out until you can't cry anymore. Some people, every once in a while, just need to let everything out if things have been piling up and creating stress. People handle stress and anxiety differently, and the fact that the OP's roommates decided to have a party was completely disrespectful. I am lucky enough to have fantastic roommates who would let me have my freak out, but then they'd try to help me out and distract me from my problems. They'd either try to get me to go out with them and forget everything, or they'd give me my space and let me be alone if I really needed to be. They wouldn't just have a bunch of people over for a party just because I didn't want to go out. OP, I hope things get better for you. Take a nice long shower, take a nap, listen to some music, or do whatever it is you can think of to relax yourself. Use your next day off to treat yourself to something, even if it's just something small. I hope you have family and friends you can go to to escape for a bit. Going home to my dad's always makes me feel better! :] Take care of yourself.