Your misery is mostly your own fault for getting married when you didn't want to, and after that agreeing to kids you didn't want instead if getting a divorce(assuming your wife was insistent). Do you not love your children? How sad for them. I see this as an FML for your wife and children.

They broke your only fishing rod. You have another rod that can be another pleasure in life.

Nobody can force you to say I do, even if she Proposed bc you “never wanted to get married”— and IF you asked her for her hand then WTF are you complaining about. Nobody forced you to be at the alter after you went in person to the courthouse to apply and purchase the marriage license. YOU—-YOU did that, Then if you never wanted kids, who the hell stopped you from nipping your balls! Huh? ONLY your own little brain did. SO that fact you have two little kids is your own damn fault bc no one ****** your wife with YOUR seed but YOU. Then even with all that your a shitty DAD for not teaching your children to respect other people’s items

maybe learn to make better choices and stop wasting everyone elses time?

While I get why everyone is giving you a hard time, we also don’t know the full story such as your cultural background, etc... Lots of cultures/parents out there force their children to take the traditional path and make decisions they don’t necessarily want to make and they basically have no way out because of whatever reasons. If you were forced to go through with this for cultural reasons and you were afraid of being disowned by your family or even worst have something happening to you, I feel sorry for you for being stuck like that. But I definitely also feel sorry for the family you helped create because no child deserves to be unloved by their parent.

Gross. I feel badly for your family

I know this may be difficult depending on your situation and where you live but try to get some therapy you sound extremely depressed.

Do you have trouble saying “no”?

Pretty sure you’re my brothers boss