By IncompatibleMetier - 09/10/2014 23:07 - France
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(Teacher replying) Some school districts assign you to a school that may not be your school of choice or it may be located within a bad area. One teaches to educate the future, not for the money -trust me not for the money as we sometimes work 2nd jobs to compensate.
Another teacher replying. First of all, if some of the schools or neighborhoods in your district scare you, perhaps you should look into working in another school district. Working in urban schools is not for everyone. Second, if you want to help children, there are other jobs that don't involve working in a school. Third, I'm hoping OP's just facing a case of nerves and not an actual phobia. The first day always makes me nervous and I've been teaching 15 years.
That's possible #46, but going from the wording in this FML, it sounds as if OP has had a true phobia of school for a long time. So it puzzles me as to why they ever became a teacher in the first place. But I do not have all of the info so you could possibly be right.
#50 Not having all the info is really the only reason why I came to that idea. It doesn't seem as likely, but neither does them joining a teaching career while being scared of school. They may have even been forced into taking that career, it's really all up in the air unless they give a follow up.
I think Op meant nervous more than a phobia or anxiety. As 42 said, a lot of teachers are nervous on the first few days even though they've been a teacher for years. Being nervous (as oppose to a phobia) would explain her having it for years yet her still wanting to be a teacher. People tend to think words like nervous or anxious are interchangeable with words like phobias, even though in reality they're different. I think if Op had an actual phobia of schools she probably wouldn't be a teacher. Either way Op just remember why you chose your profession and I'm sure each day will be better.
Phobias can awaken well into your later years. OP probably was a teacher before the phobia appeared. The same happened with me and my agoraphobia. I used to be outside everyday for hours on end (I would rarely see my family because I was always outside), now I can't go by my front door without having a panic attack.
I say its still normal. Just make sure the kids know that too. Unless you're in high school, then your boned.
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From one teacher to another: Relax! The students will not harm you as they know you'll fail them or report them. If the community is bad just tell yourself, once you drive into work you're safe within the school grounds.
If you're scared of the neighborhood your students live in, you should look into teaching in another area. I've taught in inner city schools my entire career and I find your comments condescending. I have never once been afraid to go to work-- despite working in schools with rampant gang, drugs, and weapons problems. My students go through enough crap outside of school-- it's my job to be a strong role model who provides them a safe learning environment. Students don't need teachers who treat them, their school, and their neighborhood as if they are bombs ready to go off. They need understanding, love, compassion, and guidance. And if you think you're always safe once you're on campus, you haven't been teaching very long.