Turn up and keep insisting the defendant is guilty until you're dismissed. And then continue to seek help to deal with your suicidal ideations.

Not sure why getting a Jury Summons is considered an FML.

Bring your noose to the jury room and the defense attorney will strike you immediately. Then, throw away the noose.

That may be a good excuse to evade jury duty

you can request to postpone your jury duty because of mental health, and with proof you were in need of care for it. they won't make you do it if your mental health isn't sound.