Ok, I understand how badly you'd like to have a child, especially after having gone through all that. But, nothing, I repeat NOTHING, gives you the right to be that much of a bitch to your sister, nor refer to her own children like that. Those ARE your nephews/nieces. Also, did she say if the abortion had been for health reasons?

I understand the grief of what you've gone through, but there's zero excuse to attack Innocent children like that. they are your nieces and nephews and if they heard that, they'll never forget. that will be forever in the back of their head. they are her children. if she's adopted rather than carry her own and then had an abortion there's probably a reason for it

being angry at your own situation doesn’t give you the right to act anyway you want

I felt for you until you said adopted children are not hers, there is no excuse for saying that.

Not your body, not your business. Your sister owes you nothing. Is that why you never adopted, because you'd never view them as truly your children? Get therapy.

I fully understand you! I'm also curious about why your sister will rather have adopted children than her own biological ones.

"Asshole" is not the right word. "Monster" seems worse, but even that is too weak. Your heartache doesn't give you the right to lash out at others. Oh, and a reminder that biology doesn't make you a parent. Teaching, loving, and caring for the child/children you raise is what matters. Your parents will be wondering where they went wrong with you. Especially since your sister turned out great.

Perhaps the universe has decided you can only have a child when you stop acting like one.

Well, congrats, you ****** way the hell up. Go apologize and see if there's some emotional support for infertility in your area. And definitely apologize to your niblings if they heard you.