do you mean that you prefer to die? get treatment for depression.

I like the attitude! I'll want you on my team when the 2021 civil war starts. People wanting to survive might capitulate to the Trump army, but you and I will stick to them, come what may.

*2021 will be better with an actual leader who cares about anything other than his ego, lining the pockets of his cronies, and oppressing any person or entire population of people he doesn’t like. The last 4 whole years were a disturbing ******* scary joke and I feel hope for the first time in a long time that things may get better. Unless the brainwashed masses he has whipped up into a frenzy that appear ready to take up arms to fight for “rigged” elections and their “right” to breathe plague into each other’s faces end up revolting. We’ll see. Regardless of politics and plague (was that redundant? Hahaha), I do feel a bit more optimistic. Vaccines are coming down the pike, and a leader is coming in who will do crazy things like not fire anyone who disagrees with him and make efforts to pull us back from these skyrocketing death rates and generally try to bring everyone together for the betterment of all. In the meantime, OP, please try your best to stay positive. It can be so hard, I know - I really REALLY know - but it will get better. Make that doctor’s appointment, and maybe mention that you’ve felt life may not really be worth living anymore, and doc will recommend a therapist or meds or both. Good luck to you. *I wrote this as a reply but meant to make it its own post. Sorry for the double post.

Well, I've got no problem seeing the logic here, unfortunately...