I know the feeling. I wish nothing but the best for you and I’m sorry you’re going through this

Reality: The longer you are alone, the happier you will be, and the less lonely you will feel. And then BAM someone will come into your life and disrupt it all over again :-)

it takes time, give yourself patience. you can't be truly happy with someone else if you can't be happy alone. find hobbies join meetups/classes

I have been there. And by using the past tense, I mean about the part where I felt awful about being alone. I always had boyfriends as a teen and young adult and I married my college sweetheart right after we graduated. Then I was widowed young. I tried dating after he died, but nothing worked out. I’ve accepted that I’ll probably be single - and that’s OK. You’re probably younger than I am, and you’ll probably find someone. But your happiness doesn’t depend on a romantic partner. Find joy in other things. I love my dogs, and it’s fun to play in the snow with them. I love to shop for gifts for family and friends. I love to cook the traditional holiday foods my mom made when I was growing up. And a relationship of any kind is always going to be better if you go into it as someone who is complete and comfortable with yourself, rather than needy and insecure.