Today, I’ve been on the waiting list for therapy for months, after years and years of childhood trauma. I’m haunted daily by the memories of what happened and I’m still no closer to the top of the list. I’m broken inside. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, and every time I meet a new therapist for support, I’m told that my issues are out of their scope of practice, and I get referred to someone who’s supposed to more experienced, and then get told the same thing. I’m too fucked up to even get the therapy I need to get better. FML
Today, after growing up in abusive homes most of my life until last year, I'm finally the happiest I could be and I'm getting all the help I need and achieving my dreams. I feel genuinely happy, yet I still want to end it. I've asked doctors for meds but they want me to see a psychiatrist first. The waiting list is more than a year. FML
Today, I'm on the verge of losing my job because of my poor mental health. I've been on a wait list for therapy/psych services for over a year already. My boss's response was, "It can't be that bad, just stop thinking about it." I have PTSD, OCD, BPD, ADHD, bipolar depression and anxiety. FML
Today, I realized it's been over a month since my last therapy session. My therapist canceled on me and never got back in touch to reschedule. FML
Today, I've been seeing a therapist after more than 20 years of struggles. I think I saw him cry during our sessions a few times. I guess that my inability to live my life at the fullest was hard earned. FML
Today, I’m mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted, and I feel like the only person I can talk to who actually listens is my therapist. FML
Today, I made an appointment with a therapist because lately I've been feeling alone and like no one cares about me. I waited at her office for about forty minutes before the receptionist informed me that she must have forgotten about the appointment. Even my therapist stands me up. FML
Today, I went to therapy. I started talking about my childhood and my life. By the time the session was over my therapist was crying. FML
Today, I started self-harming again. My therapist keeps switching the subject when I try to bring it up, and my best friend has called me attention-seeking and selfish so many times in the past year that I’m too scared to ask for her support. I have nobody else to talk to. FML
Today, my therapist broke up with me after almost 3 years. I can’t pay people to listen to my problems. FML
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FluffythePink 23
Give Mind a call. They can offer means tested therapy that can get you started while you are waiting. Their waiting list is way shorter than the NHS and they're a lot better. Don't expect actual help from the NHS even when you eventually get seen, just get your full, formal diagnosis out of them and use them to get any medications sorted out. Get any other medical conditions diagnosed or the diagnoses you already have and apply for PIP (doesn't matter if you are working or not). Google how to fill in the forms and make sure you get a letter from your Dr requesting a home assessment. You'll probably have to appeal the first decision, they do that to most people so don't take it personally. The monthly payments should be enough to help you pay for decent therapy. That's how I'm having to do it. There are a fair few places that can offer an affordable price for therapy and it's 100% better than anything you can get from the NHS. They're literally just running a pretty shabby triage now. I was in the same sort of position as you and all I got was a 3 monthly phone call to check I hadn't topped myself 🙄. Please don't trust in the NHS, you'll only be disappointed and that doesn't help the situation. Mind are a fantastic bunch, give them a call: 0300-123-3393 that's their main info line and every single person I've ever dealt with there have been entirely human. 🫂🫂
L0life29 6
it may not feel like it, you may not trust, and I won’t even begin to understand what you have gone through, but please know there are people that care about you and can help. don’t give up looking for it. I hope for the best for you.
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L0life29 6
it may not feel like it, you may not trust, and I won’t even begin to understand what you have gone through, but please know there are people that care about you and can help. don’t give up looking for it. I hope for the best for you.
FluffythePink 23
Give Mind a call. They can offer means tested therapy that can get you started while you are waiting. Their waiting list is way shorter than the NHS and they're a lot better. Don't expect actual help from the NHS even when you eventually get seen, just get your full, formal diagnosis out of them and use them to get any medications sorted out. Get any other medical conditions diagnosed or the diagnoses you already have and apply for PIP (doesn't matter if you are working or not). Google how to fill in the forms and make sure you get a letter from your Dr requesting a home assessment. You'll probably have to appeal the first decision, they do that to most people so don't take it personally. The monthly payments should be enough to help you pay for decent therapy. That's how I'm having to do it. There are a fair few places that can offer an affordable price for therapy and it's 100% better than anything you can get from the NHS. They're literally just running a pretty shabby triage now. I was in the same sort of position as you and all I got was a 3 monthly phone call to check I hadn't topped myself 🙄. Please don't trust in the NHS, you'll only be disappointed and that doesn't help the situation. Mind are a fantastic bunch, give them a call: 0300-123-3393 that's their main info line and every single person I've ever dealt with there have been entirely human. 🫂🫂
DLBL 23
I am sorry you can't get the help you need after years of real trauma. I hope the delay is not because the system is clogged with people who don't feel special enough or need a "safe space" when they've suffered no real trauma, just life's road. Seriously, I sympathize and wish I could help you.