Today, after extensive tests, I found out I'm neurologically incapable of forming habits. If I stop doing something for any reason, I have to find a new way, or never do it again. This includes work, hobbies, study, and even basic hygiene. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, after years of study and hard work, I fulfilled my long time dream of becoming a neurologist. Too bad it took me so long to figure out I absolutely hate working in a hospital. FML
Today, everything I touch goes wrong or into the trash. Whatever I do at work, I screw up somehow (in new ways every time) and get blamed. I worked for months on something, only for it to be scrapped. I just feel like I should give up on everything, including life. FML
Today, I'm ruining my own life by being incredibly lazy at my new job. It scares me, as my family is dependent on my income, and I love this job too. Why am I always on self-destruct mode? I really want to snap out of it and be hardworking like so many others I know (including my husband). FML
Today, I have finally accepted that OCD has won after almost 17 years. It’s taken every bit of enjoyment I have out of life from me, from work, to relationships, even to TV shows and food! Every time I try to reclaim something, it doesn’t last long before my brain wins and ruins it with negative associations. FML
Today, I found out that I have a chronic illness that has affected my brain function, heart and nervous system, and basically leaves me cognitively impaired daily and ruined my quality of life. Apparently it wasn’t just “all in my head” like so many neurologists claimed over the past two decades. FML
Today, I diagnosed myself with a debilitating case of vicious circle: I am now too depressed to do the things that usually manage to pull me out of my depression. FML
Today, I discovered that it is not, in fact, normal for ones hands to randomly stop working sometimes. I thought I was just clumsy. FML
Today, I think I've conditioned my body to not function without technology, as I simply couldn't take a shit until I got up, fetched my phone and returned to the toilet to read stuff on here. FML
Today, I finally got the results of months of extensive psychological testing to determine why I did so well in my course but performed so terribly on the job. Turns out I'm autistic. FML
Today, I was formally diagnosed with obsessive-compulsive tendencies. My mom saw this as an excuse to make me clean the whole house top to bottom, because "Hey, you love to clean." FML
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RichardPencil 32
Try alcohol, sex, drugs and gambling. Prove those doctors wrong!!!
Ubehage 32
I have the same problem. I found out that some habits can be formed, though. All that matters is our motivation. I never took care of my teeth, and well into my adult life I was unable to form the habit of brushing every day. A few years ago, I had my entire mouth fixed. After just one month, some of it had to be redone because I didn't brush them. That hit me hard, and gave me the motivation needed to start on that habit. I am sure that we can all do it, if only we get the right motivation.
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Ubehage 32
I have the same problem. I found out that some habits can be formed, though. All that matters is our motivation. I never took care of my teeth, and well into my adult life I was unable to form the habit of brushing every day. A few years ago, I had my entire mouth fixed. After just one month, some of it had to be redone because I didn't brush them. That hit me hard, and gave me the motivation needed to start on that habit. I am sure that we can all do it, if only we get the right motivation.
cacheson 42
I absolutely understand this. I can’t just habitually do things, i have to actively force myself to do them every time. There are maybe 2 or 3 things I had done every day of my life until they got interrupted by stress at home and once I stopped for a day or two I couldn’t remember to/make myself do it anymore (like brushing my teeth).
RichardPencil 32
Try alcohol, sex, drugs and gambling. Prove those doctors wrong!!!
Brightside86 31
That's really interesting, what's this condition called?