Today, I suddenly gained a massive burst of anxiety out of nowhere when thinking about my upcoming assessment appointments for my back and hip surgeries. I need these so I don't end up permanently crippled due to spinal stenosis and a labral tear. The worst part is that I know I'm fretting over nothing. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, despite knowing that I should never trust "Doctor Google" I was doing some research into what I could do about my spinal stenosis and the labral tear. I'm now seriously confused because working on my hip could hurt my back, but focusing just on my back might cause my right side to deteriorate. FML
Today, I found out that what I thought could be a life-threatening issue causing me chest pains was only because I over-obsessed about it. Now not only do I have social anxiety, but I get so anxious I can create fake illnesses. FML
Today, I had a anxiety attack about taking my anxiety medicine. FML
Today, on top of learning that I have three discs pressing on my spinal column and a labral tear, I also found out my left testicle dropped, but not my right one. I'm nearly 40 and I need to see a urologist over this. After the surgeries to fix my spine and hip. FML
Today, I'm having an existential crisis. I don't what the future holds, I'm overthinking and stressing about things I could've controlled. Now I'm having a breakdown and I've got a test tomorrow and I have to take a bath, but all my lazy ass does is worry but never actually do the fucking work. FML
Today, I'm sitting in agonizing pain following a scoliosis surgery. I have a bunch of painkillers that I need to suppress the incredible back pain, but looks like I can't take any, because my mom has hidden them from me because she thinks I need to be taken off them. I wish my doctor was here. FML
Today, my overthinking and ADHD combo got so ridiculous that I found myself worrying about how my cat was going to be after he returned from the vet. Not if he was going to be okay or not, how he was going to behave. FML
Today, I learned I'm claustrophobic by having a raging oh-god-I'm-gonna-fucking-die panic attack while I was stuck inside an MRI scanner. FML
Today, my parents brought me to the doctor because I was "faking" a headache. One thing led to another, and it turns out I have a tumor pressing against my spine. FML
Today, I had an anxiety attack just from thinking about appearing on TV and being watched by a real audience. FML
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GoogieWithers 25
Surgery is scary. Find out as much as you can about it. If it is a routine surgery, then the team has obviously perfected it at this point. If it is a rare surgery, then you are being seen by a specialist who knows what they are doing.
DLBL 23
GooleWithers is right. Learn about it. These days, the anesthesiology team and surgeons are very advanced in technology; they know what to do and also what to do if anything goes awry. You can tell your doc about the anxiety; maybe he'll give you a few Anxiolytics meds to get you through the next few days. There's no shame in treating anxiety.
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GoogieWithers 25
Surgery is scary. Find out as much as you can about it. If it is a routine surgery, then the team has obviously perfected it at this point. If it is a rare surgery, then you are being seen by a specialist who knows what they are doing.
DLBL 23
GooleWithers is right. Learn about it. These days, the anesthesiology team and surgeons are very advanced in technology; they know what to do and also what to do if anything goes awry. You can tell your doc about the anxiety; maybe he'll give you a few Anxiolytics meds to get you through the next few days. There's no shame in treating anxiety.
TomeDr 25
The problem with phobias and anxiety is that they don’t care about logic. I use a CPAP and, despite the entire purpose of the thing is to keep me breathing through the night, sometimes the claustrophobia kicks in and I feel like I’m being smothered. If you believe in God, I suggest you read and memorize Psalm 23. It’s turned out to be the best way I’ve found to calm my nerves.