Try To Write Love On Her Arms. They all have been there too. Don't hurt yourself there are people who care.

My first thought was you dialed the wrong number.

OP, I am so sorry. If you ever need to talk, let me know. I might not be able to help, but I can at least lend an ear.

Just gotta hold onto the hope that things will get better. That and reach out to close friends/family or a support group. Never be afraid to ask for help.

OP, I lost my brother to suicide two months ago. In the note he left he told us that he did not want to be a monster and be a burden on us all by depending on us for help all the time. My brother was my best friend, he brought me joy and happiness with every conversation, with every hug and with every time he depended on me for help. His depression warped his viewpoint to the point that he thought it would be easier on us all if he ended his life rather than turn to us for help. My life was not perfect before but I was content and largely happy in life. Now I am consumed by guilt and sadness, I am on the verge of breaking off my 10 year relationship with my fiancée. I am having mood swings violent enough that I broke my arm on a tree and can't help but long to suicide myself to allow me to see my brother again, the only thing that has stopped me is seeing the pain my brothers death brought the other members of my family. My brothers loss has broken me, but his depression made him think this would be less of a burden than him coming and living with me for a while. When he wasn't depressed, he loved life. Two days before it, we were laughing and plotting adventures together. Please OP, for gods sake, talk to your family, talk to your friends, try other support lines. Do anything and everything that can help you regardless of the cost to your family/friends, it will always be a smaller cost than taking yourself away from them. There is no greater harm you could ever do to your loved ones than suicide. You do not know how precious you are to them, no matter what your depression says. You are loved, you are precious and you are more important than you could ever imagine. Choose to live.

OP could you post a response? Get a friend to post even? Some of us would like to know if things are getting better.

This is not something to joke about. Please. Things seem bad now, but they do get better. Ain't nothing worth killing yourself for. Call another hotline, talk to someone, get help. I may be a stranger, but I care about you. Don't get down on yourself to that point friend. Can even talk here if you wish

I know this was posted a bit ago but I'm hoping for the best for you, OP. Right now I'm homeless, jobless, and have a dog to feed and I'm 19. I've suffered depression for half my life and I've almost done it but the only thing keeping me going is that thought that I'm so young and loved as are you.

Hi I posted this. Thanks for all the support!! I was in a really bad place when I posted this but I've been talking to a professional and got on medication and I'm really improving. All your comments really helped too. I didn't call the wrong number, I called back and asked someone else for a supervisor and he said he'd look into it. Never heard anything back from him though. I just hope the asshole that told me to **** off didn't drive anybody else over the edge :

maybee you should grow a pair and handle your problems yourself