Today, I realized how bad my depression has gotten when I caught myself fantasizing about suicide while having sex with my husband. FML
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Today, after being severely depressed for a week, I was having sex with my boyfriend when got so anxious that I threw up. FML
Today, I realized that I'm so depressed that I can't even watch porn without getting upset about how I can't get laid. FML
Today, I realized that sex with my husband has gotten so boring that I'd rather fake an orgasm than let him continue. FML
Today, I masturbated 3 times to the thought of my wife because we don't have sex anymore. FML
Today, I realised just how cripplingly self-conscious I am, when I couldn't even fantasise about having sex with a guy without feeling shy and insecure about my body. FML
Today, I realized that due to my anti-depressants, I can no longer orgasm. At. All. Which depresses me more. FML
Today, and for months now, the meds that stop me from killing myself have killed my sex drive. My boyfriend, being stressed at work, initially assured me that his was also non existent and not to worry. I found out he's been wanking every day and hiding it from me so I don't feel bad. Now I know, I feel fucking awful. FML
Today, I realized my marriage makes me feel like I'm just passing time until death. FML
Today, I realized just how much my bad sex life has started affecting me, when after not being able to climax from masturbating, I instinctively faked an orgasm. FML
Today, I had a panic attack because my boyfriend thought it would be sexy to choke me in the middle of sex. FML
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Dom_Olivares 12
Talk it out with your husband or someone else!
Eliseopwns 22
We all have problems. At least you know and acknowledge yours.
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Comments (181)
misscalimar 10
Please get help op
Zebediabolical 45
Hey, whatever gets you off!
JMichael 26
Was the sex really that bad?
worldclassrager 41
I think you should see someone...
karmakat 7
Oh no :( I hope that was a sign to go talk to someone about it - and maybe someone new if you already have been.
xnyletak 17
Get a therapist, OP.
katina1236 20
GET.HELP.NOW
buttcramp 21
ya know I hate to be "that guy" but you ought to talk to someone.. suicide is ******* serious. I went through some stuff and I got help and I'm glad I did! depression isn't something to be ashamed of and the treatment for it is simply a pill a day.. hang in there OP
irishmaiden78 23
It's not always a pill. The medication I was on made my depression so much worse that I landed in the psych ward. I actually found that having a dog with me cuts my anxiety and depression level so much. But that's what works for me and it may not work for everyone. :)
buttcramp 21
you have to "find the right cocktail" for you. for me its taking certain vitamins with celexa. it can also be as simple as changing your daily routine. like hit the gym or treat yourself to a froyo after work!
DanielleinDC 34
That's an idea--a support animal. I understand some people have support animals they take with them to ease their anxiety and depression. Even if she's not officially a support animal, having a dog or cat around the house can be a comfort. Stroking an animal's fur is said to lower blood pressure and increase endorphins.
Film21 8
you need professional help!!
irishmaiden78 23
Hun, I am proud that you acknowledge that there is an issue. That is a very hard step and most people are in denial when suffering from depression. There are many, many people out there willing to listen including myself. I know what depression is like, I know what suicidal thoughts are like. I've been hospitalized because I knew I needed help. And you know what? Things are better now, not perfect (they're never perfect) but they are soo much better and I'm happy. I know you can be happy too, it just takes baby steps.