Today, I realized how bad my depression has gotten when I caught myself fantasizing about suicide while having sex with my husband. FML
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A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, after being severely depressed for a week, I was having sex with my boyfriend when got so anxious that I threw up. FML
Today, I realized that I'm so depressed that I can't even watch porn without getting upset about how I can't get laid. FML
Today, I realized that sex with my husband has gotten so boring that I'd rather fake an orgasm than let him continue. FML
Today, I masturbated 3 times to the thought of my wife because we don't have sex anymore. FML
Today, I realised just how cripplingly self-conscious I am, when I couldn't even fantasise about having sex with a guy without feeling shy and insecure about my body. FML
Today, I realized that due to my anti-depressants, I can no longer orgasm. At. All. Which depresses me more. FML
Today, and for months now, the meds that stop me from killing myself have killed my sex drive. My boyfriend, being stressed at work, initially assured me that his was also non existent and not to worry. I found out he's been wanking every day and hiding it from me so I don't feel bad. Now I know, I feel fucking awful. FML
Today, I realized my marriage makes me feel like I'm just passing time until death. FML
Today, I realized just how much my bad sex life has started affecting me, when after not being able to climax from masturbating, I instinctively faked an orgasm. FML
Today, I had a panic attack because my boyfriend thought it would be sexy to choke me in the middle of sex. FML
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Dom_Olivares 12
Talk it out with your husband or someone else!
Eliseopwns 22
We all have problems. At least you know and acknowledge yours.
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Andicc 19
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Prozac.
friedpwnadge 25
That must really kill your sex life.
TheDrifter 24
The Prozac or the duck face?
thejewishfuhrer 17
"Boom!" Duck hunting.
Andicc 19
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Yeah you're real cute.. I was actually blowing a kiss in this picture, but, being a fucktard obviously duck face was the first thought in your mind. Go somewhere else and be a douche canoe..your pic says it all PUSSY
XTheDesertSongX 17
Prozac isn't the answer to everything. I was on Prozac and it made me more suicidal. Most depression medicines have side effects of making whoever takes it MORE depressed. It just doesn't effect everybody. Be a little less of a smartass next time.
Glman6789 5
haaaaa prozac is the answer for everything
incoherentrmblr 22
Actually, Vicodin is the answer...
Andicc 19
I was totally being sarcastic about the Prozac, I was on it for years and it made my depression turn into aggression. I tried cymbalta And I felt great! Except no sex drive period, so I stopped taking it. Been handling it on my own without meds for a few years and dealt really well with it, but different things work for different people.
Jemm_fml 29
Same here - Prozac nearly killed me, Zoloft saved my life. We're all going to react uniquely to drugs but don't class them all as useless.
linyah 11
I think it varies on each person for anti-depresants. I've been on zoloft..oh man that stuff made my life hell while prozac has made my life a ton better. Though op..I would go see a counselor if you are having those thoughts. I do hope you get some help and feel better!
sk8_king 23
I agree. Prozac made things worse for me too and so I'm on Lexapro now. And it's working a lot better. Not all meds work for everyone.
mattrd_fml 31
Lexa pro would be a better option than Prozac.
bryan1271999 14
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It's a terrible idea to take any of those medicines, especialy symbalta. My teacher told me a story about his friend's son getting more depressed and eventuslly killing himself. Do not take symbalta.
hunts19ketchup 23
#112, Cymbalta may make someone depressed, while it may save someones life. Every antidepressant, whether it be Prozac, Effexor, Zoloft, whatever affects people differently. When I was younger I took Zoloft and it made me suicidal. I then switched to Lexapro and it changed my life. I started eating again, had more energy, blah blah blah. Suicidal thoughts can be a side effect of some of these medicines. That doesn't mean that another one wouldn't have worked for your teacher's friend's son (Pastor's brother's dentist...heh). And that one instance doesn't mean that all of these meds are bad for everyone. Antidepressants save a lot of people.
soccerchick800 10
I also struggle with depression as well as my best friend. She takes medicine, has crazy mood swings, and gets angry at me for things that used to not bother her. I am working on dealing with my depression on my own without medicine. Luckily I have a supportive mom who wants the best for me and hates to see me sad. I felt a lot better after talking with her. OP, it may help to talk to a counselor or someone else you trust. Suicide is never the answer bc whatever you are going through, it will get better.
swick25 22
Prozac is not a wonder drug that will all of the sudden cure suicidal thoughts. This poor woman needs therapy desperately.
gAt_d 26
Marijuana.
Jabberwockyy 13
I am on Efexor and Wellbutren for anxiety and depression, but mostly for depression. They don't rid me of my depression, just make life bearable enough to live. Though for anybody taking Efexor, do not stop cold turkey or miss a couple days worth because the withdrawal symptoms are horrendous. This is especially true if you are on a high dosage like me.
donteatzombies 12
thank you! Lol I was just about to say just smoke some ******* weed. That's what I use for my depression. I understand it won't work for everybody but at least it's natural and I good place to start.
XTheDesertSongX 17
Right. I was on Zoloft, Prozac, and Lexapro and all of them made me worse in different ways. I just deal with it on my own now and I'm a lot better!
mbuck87 19
You people are all wrong, OP just needs to try autoerotic asphyxiation!
kkillaj 5
Yall need mushrooms, salvia, and ganja
IamInFlames 4
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Never look down on life, its just stupid. On the bright side, the sex session must have been amazing
SoulAmeliorate 16
Man, having emotions sure is stupid, isn't it?
IamInFlames 4
Ive been there, and u dragged myself out. looking back at it, yes, it is stupid
letmehavemytea 21
Ah yes, now that you have told OP that depression is stupid, I'm sure she'll just magically get better. Because that's how it works right? Wait, what? Mental issues don't just magically go away? Wow, I never would have guessed with all the assholes saying things like "don't be sad then" and "just be happy".
klorehore 24
well, not everyone got emotional issues because of stupid reasons, people are all different. Just cause you had a "stupid" depression doesn't mean OP does too :)
Narttu 20
If you are saying what OP is feeling is stupid then you clearly have not "been there". Depression is a serious and devastating medical condition and one of the surest ways to make a depressed person feel worse about themselves and their life is to tell them that what they are feeling is stupid.
jazzy_123 20
#2, yes the sex MUST have been amazing! I mean what's better than your husband screwing you while you have thoughts of different ways of killing yourself? I guess I've been doing it wrong the whole time. Sex with a hint of death... I love it!
Eliseopwns 22
We all have problems. At least you know and acknowledge yours.
caohm 18
sounds almost as sad as the story on YouTube where the boyfriend got so sick of shopping with his girlfriend for hours and arguing about it that he threw himself off the third floor rail at the mall and killed himself infront of everyone.
horneyhic 15
That was 7th floor
jazzy_123 20
48, I don't think sex with thoughts of suicide is sadder than an actual suicide... a PUBLIC suicide.
VeganVampyre 27
61- that's why they said this is ALMOST as sad as the public suicide. Not sadder than.
Dom_Olivares 12
Talk it out with your husband or someone else!
Rainhawk94 27
Don't say quiet!
Rainhawk94 27
Stay* wow
LadyGamble420 6
might want to get some help.
SaintJupiter 16
Its alright OP! You can make it through this. Trust me. Stay strong!
babeababe 16
Is he that bad in bed? Haha! Maybe you should talk to a doctor about that. Depression can be hard, and if you're having thoughts of suicide you definitely should get some help from someone.
ryan112 12
Thinking about suicide is normal. When we think about suicide it is because we think we do not have control of things and the thought of suicide makes us feel as if we do have control of it. You should seek help though if you think about it every single day for the past week.
kellyem2 20
Realizing things are tough is the first big step, OP. I hope you find the right resources to get the help you need.
perdix 31
Suicide is not the answer! Cheating with a really hot guy who can bring you to ****** time and time again is!
dangermouse2990 19
Yeah infidelity is the answer...NOT!...smh
evilplatypus 39
9 - Are you volunteering, Perdix?
perdix 31
#54, depends on what she looks like. Heh-heh-heh. I'm superficial :(
evilplatypus 39
~Behold the shock and surprise on my face~
drewflav 17
50 - Infidelity or suicide, take your pick. I think most people would choose the former. Unless of course you have no partner, then you'd be ****** over in that particular decision... FYI, I do get seasonal affectivity disorder. It's not quite the same as depression but has a lot of similar symptoms. I've had the thoughts myself from time to time but only in the winter months.
TheDrifter 24
He's that good huh? I thought the hormones from sex were supposed to help with alleviating depression?
boating_guy 33
I guess not if the sex isn't arousing or exciting. If you aren't enjoying it...bad sex is bad sex, whatever OP's reason is (mental or physical, or both)
TwistedCherub1 15
Sex can be bad for women just because they're in a bad state of mind. A good lay is not the answer to everything. OP, talk to someone, anyone. You don't have to go through it alone.