Today, I realized how bad my depression has gotten when I caught myself fantasizing about suicide while having sex with my husband. FML
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A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, after being severely depressed for a week, I was having sex with my boyfriend when got so anxious that I threw up. FML
Today, I realized that I'm so depressed that I can't even watch porn without getting upset about how I can't get laid. FML
Today, I realized that sex with my husband has gotten so boring that I'd rather fake an orgasm than let him continue. FML
Today, I masturbated 3 times to the thought of my wife because we don't have sex anymore. FML
Today, I realised just how cripplingly self-conscious I am, when I couldn't even fantasise about having sex with a guy without feeling shy and insecure about my body. FML
Today, I realized that due to my anti-depressants, I can no longer orgasm. At. All. Which depresses me more. FML
Today, and for months now, the meds that stop me from killing myself have killed my sex drive. My boyfriend, being stressed at work, initially assured me that his was also non existent and not to worry. I found out he's been wanking every day and hiding it from me so I don't feel bad. Now I know, I feel fucking awful. FML
Today, I realized my marriage makes me feel like I'm just passing time until death. FML
Today, I realized just how much my bad sex life has started affecting me, when after not being able to climax from masturbating, I instinctively faked an orgasm. FML
Today, I had a panic attack because my boyfriend thought it would be sexy to choke me in the middle of sex. FML
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Dom_Olivares 12
Talk it out with your husband or someone else!
Eliseopwns 22
We all have problems. At least you know and acknowledge yours.
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Comments (181)
ur_grace 9
Repeat as many times as needed the following phrase " I can get through this. It is just chemical. I would be missed" use this on your way to a dr to get help! When I didn't have insurance I spread thin my antidepressants and had some rough days this phrase really helped me many times
KenB99 15
the best thing to do is talk to him about it. I know depression can suck and I hope you continue to live and don't kill yourself
jellenwood 35
Please, please get help!
BassBone246 13
Depression is a very serious medical condition, as I'm sure you know. SEEK OUT HELP!! There are countless therapies and medicines to help suppress suicidal thoughts and tendencies!! It worked for my brother, and it can work for you too, OP!!
duckit 0
Get help before you hurt yourself. Suicide is selfish
an3ph 20
Wow. That takes evil to a whole new level.
KasiaLilith 13
I find ot horrible that you have sex when you're not into it. It's called putting out.
fleur_de_fevrier_fml 23
OP, as someone who recently lost my best friend to suicide, I can only urge you to get some help if you're not doing so already. I don't need to tell you that clinical depression and suicidal thoughts are very serious and should never be left untreated. To the people who say "cheer up, life is great", these are empty words. A clinical depression is a mental illness that completely destroys the person suffering from it, only a person who went through it can understand how it feels. This is not like having a bad day or feeling down for a while. The disease takes everything from you and leaves utterly and totally hopeless.
Kiagg2002 7
you are an amazing person and don't have to thing thoughts like that just convince yourself that things are better than they actually are
Kiagg2002 7
think*
ladybuglet 22
Please get help.