Today, I realized I can never live with my fiancée. A childhood of systematic teasing, abuse, and humiliation has made me terrified to use a bathroom around a guy if there's the slightest chance I can be heard, seen, or even have anyone know what I'm up to. Therapy has yet to fix anything. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, I finally told my boyfriend that I see a therapist every week because, amongst other things, I'm terrified of being locked in a room. He didn't believe me, so he locked me in the bathroom "for a laugh." I had a panic attack and passed out. FML
Today, I still have my ridiculous fear of being heard on the toilet, and I can't go if people are around. I'd just sat down on the toilet when three of my housemates started chatting immediately outside the door. I had to sit silently until they were gone. For half an hour. FML
Today, while getting intimate with my girlfriend, I felt a sharp pain in my stomach, and had to run to the bathroom to evacuate my bowels. She heard the horrible sounds, and I doubt I'll ever be able to seduce her again. FML
Today, despite my fear of using public restrooms, I was forced to anyway to avoid my bladder exploding. I was finally getting over it when someone stuck their head under the stall to "see if someone's in there". I'm scared more now than I was before. FML
Today, my boyfriend threatened to break up with me because I still close the door when I go to the bathroom. He pees and poops with the door wide open and expects me to do the same. FML
Today, I accidentally walked in on my girlfriend changing. She responded by screaming, throwing herself on the ground to avoid me seeing her, and crawling into the bathroom. We've been living together for two months. FML
Today, I found out that both my boyfriend and his brother feel completely comfortable going into the bathroom and talking to their mother while she is on the toilet. FML
Today, and for the last week, I've resorted to driving myself to the nearest corner store to take my daily dump. I'm doing this because I recently moved in with my boyfriend, and I'm afraid he'll be disgusted at how often I clog the toilet. FML
Today, I was speaking with my therapist about future romantic endeavors. I'm currently separating from my husband of three years. I feel it's unlikely I will ever date again, and I've developed a phobia of sex over the past year. It's so severe that I cannot even masturbate. Destined to die alone. FML
Today, I admitted my fear of small spaces to my boyfriend. His response was to immediately lock me in the hall closet. FML
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cursesonyourmom 1
buy a little radio and play it in the bathroom. even if your just putting on makeup. that way he can't hear you and doesn't know what your doing.
lolorly 0
"If you have to shit, shit! If you have to fart, fart! You will feel much better for it." ~Mao Tse-tung
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Comments (235)
vincenoir 5
I totally sympathise! I really suffer from this too! You'll get through this, it really can be a problem. I empathise so much!
smartalek 2
I have that problem with eating around guys... I physically CANNOT, if I'm attracted to them...
PlasmaVirus 4
How exactly are you going to word the break-up speech? That'll be quite interesting to hear...
Sukismama 2
Aw honey I'm so sorry thats awful, just try to take into consideration that.the only possible person that could hear you or anything would be your fiance, who loves you, not any rude people from school
magikarpman 0
suck it up
BritLass 15
Become a lesbian! :D
Splayd 10
What, were you teased by an organized, psychological warfare group -- of children? If not, then I doubt the teasing and abuse was "systematic".
Playboy420 0
Give birth in front of him and you'll never be embarrassed about any bodily functions of yours again.
RKD 23
Sorry to hear! Maybe you can gradually de-sensitize yourself, you can do it-trust me, you have to go bad enough, you'll find the courage!
interesting33 37
Oh that is hard!! I find it really embarassing to do number 2s and things if other people are at all near by. But everyone has the same functions, everyone on the planet, and a lot of people use toilets and things. In the Roman times, people all sat in the same room using the same sponge. Much easier said than done, and I know I worry, but don't worry <:)