Today, I found one of my mom's old diaries that dated back to my infant days. I couldn't help but read a little. I'm now in great concern over how many times my mom wrote that she wanted to dunk me in the toilet or throw me against a wall. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I found my long lost diary and curiously read it. What's worse than finding out that your mother read your diary? Finding out that your mother wrote comments in it. FML
Today, my mom read my diary. Then she frantically booked me an appointment with a psychiatrist. FML
Today, I found my diary on my mother's nightstand. Bookmarked. FML
Today, feeling very distant from my daughter recently, I decided to sneak a peek in her diary to see what was on her mind. The book was apparently one of those that play the sound of a woman screaming when opened improperly, and alerted everyone in the house to my actions. FML
Today, I rummaged around in the attic, looking for old pictures of me and my family, so I could make a surprise collage. Instead, I found my dad's old journals, talking about how desperately he didn't want a kid, and how he wanted to leave my mother more and more every day that passed since I was born. FML
Today, my dad found and read my diary. Most of the entries were about how my father didn't respect my privacy. Then he phoned my aunt and read her passages from it. FML
Today, I was helping my mom look for some money she'd misplaced. At my wit's end, I flipped through her diary, in case she'd hidden it between the pages as she has before. Didn't find the money, but I did find out she might well be cheating on my dad. FML
Today, I took a look at my 9-year-old daughter's diary, thinking it would be full of cute stuff. Instead, it was full of hateful rants against me and my husband, as well the boys at her school, who she called gay because none of them ever hit on her. It seems I've failed as a parent. FML
Today, my therapist asked me if I’d been journaling as he suggested. I had to tell him that I don’t trust writing down my innermost thoughts anymore, because when I was younger my mom read by diary multiple times and beat me for what I wrote. So did my ex-boyfriend. FML
Today, I found a notebook my 12-year-old sister had been doodling in. Turns out the "doodles" were poems full of obscenities and descriptions of how she wanted to hurt herself. When I showed it to my mom, she accused me of writing the notebook myself to frame my sister. FML
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MandyMeow_fml 18
That's true motherly love
emilyjgraham 34
I'm sure you'll understand one day, not that every mother wants to use violence, but how stressful having a child can be. Maybe your mother went through post natal depression but wasn't diagnosed, it happens. Just let it slide, I'm sure she's happy now. She might not want to remember the feelings she had. :)
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DomDomxoxo 16
Please don't tell me you're 14 and you have a kid.
annagilbert 6
Awkward..
breanuh21 5
That's really scary! Next time don't. Read it
captainburke 5
Every parent probably thinks that, at least she didn't do it! And you shouldn't have been looking through her diary!
DomDomxoxo 16
Maybe you never thought that about your baby because you don't work 40+ hours to support him. You don't have that kind of stress on your shoulders. I'm sure you don't have any bills to pay.
Mu51kfr34k89 2
It's a miracle that you're still alive OP; be grateful!
crduncan 6
That's called postpartum depression, and those thoughts are very common. Moms rarely act out on those thoughts.
Enslaved 38
First I thought this was going to be a "Mamma Mia!" FML She probably kept a diary to relieve stress. Some have a difficult time handling a new born. BTW reading someone else's private thoughts are a no-no! Unless you get the okay from your mom first. **My mom shared her old love letters she kept with me. It was a nice bonding day!(:
cardinalsluv92 5
I have a two year old and yesterday he was crying so much that he quit breathing once or twice. I can completely understand where that mom is coming from. At least she just wrote about it and didn't actually do it.
tmmundy 17
61...she's a 14 year old gamer who wants to be mentioned in someone's profile!!! WOW, sounds like she's really concerned about her baby?