Today, my therapist asked me if I’d been journaling as he suggested. I had to tell him that I don’t trust writing down my innermost thoughts anymore, because when I was younger my mom read by diary multiple times and beat me for what I wrote. So did my ex-boyfriend. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, I was writing in a journal as part of my therapy. I jumped and hid it when my boyfriend startled me by coming in. He now swears I must be cheating, that I’m keeping secrets from him and I trust a stranger with my personal thoughts more than I trust him. That’s kinda the point of therapy. FML
Today, I found out that my husband read my journal behind my back when he got mad over something I'd written in it. This is the same journal that my therapist told me to keep, to help me get past my trust issues. FML
Today, my mom read my diary. Then she frantically booked me an appointment with a psychiatrist. FML
Today, I finally confronted my parents about my depression and avoidant personality disorder. I showed them a well-kept journal of every time they've disregarded my feelings on something completely valid. I'd worked on this journal since I was ten years old. They denied it all and told me to "quit being a crybaby." FML
Today, I went to therapy. I started talking about my childhood and my life. By the time the session was over my therapist was crying. FML
Today, my therapist told me to write down my secrets in an envelope and symbolically burn them. My secrets included stories of my rampant sex life, drug use, a suicide attempt, and the overpowering hatred I have for my family. I've managed to misplace the envelope somewhere back home. FML
Today, I found one of my mom's old diaries that dated back to my infant days. I couldn't help but read a little. I'm now in great concern over how many times my mom wrote that she wanted to dunk me in the toilet or throw me against a wall. FML
Today, my dad found and read my diary. Most of the entries were about how my father didn't respect my privacy. Then he phoned my aunt and read her passages from it. FML
Today, I found my long lost diary and curiously read it. What's worse than finding out that your mother read your diary? Finding out that your mother wrote comments in it. FML
Today, I found myself lying to my diary. FML
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Rake 18
Use your phone with something like onenote. Password protects the drive and only allow access from that specific device. No one will be able to see what you wrote.
Anderling 33
From the phrasing of the OP (“I had to tell him” vs “remind him”) I’m not sure the therapist knew about this, in which case I can’t fault him for doing something wrong by accident when he had no way of knowing it had this many negative connotations for OP.
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FluffythePink 23
Your therapist really should have taken the negative connotations you have with journaling into account. Maybe you should try a better therapist rather than one that's just following the 'script'?
Anderling 33
From the phrasing of the OP (“I had to tell him” vs “remind him”) I’m not sure the therapist knew about this, in which case I can’t fault him for doing something wrong by accident when he had no way of knowing it had this many negative connotations for OP.
Anderling 33
Does it help you personally to talk about it? Maybe you could buy a cheap voice recorder and dedicate it to voicing your thoughts out loud instead of writing it down if that doesn’t have the same negative feelings attached to it, while still letting you keep a record of them.
Rake 18
Use your phone with something like onenote. Password protects the drive and only allow access from that specific device. No one will be able to see what you wrote.