Today, I just came out of a two-year long depression. I'm finally starting to feel normal, so of course I get a message that my grandmother might have less than a year to live. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, I confided to my grandma that I'm suffering from depression and I feel like a burden to everyone. She replied that her grandpa used to suffer from depression too, but that he'd cured himself in the end, namely by committing suicide. Thanks, grandma, thanks. FML
Today, my mom made the (not) very wise decision to once again inform me that my grandma is in rapidly declining health, and as a result she is not long for this world. My brain took this as an opportunity to push my anxiety into overdrive. I can't stop thinking about what will happen when my grandma dies. FML
Today, my 71-year-old grandmother survived cancer for the fourth time. I'm grateful, but at the same time I find myself feeling sad that she will soon be gone. She has COPD and constantly mentions that she is going to die soon. I wish I could build a time machine and go back to before she became terminally ill. FML
Today, I just realized the last time I showered was while my grandma was still alive. My grandma died four months ago. Depression really does a number on you without you noticing. FML
Today, after mourning and making my girlfriend cancel her big birthday party, I found out my grandma didn't actually die. FML
Today, I bitched out my grandmother, who lives with my family, for being lazy and laying in bed until 6-7pm for the past month. When I was done, she told me she had been diagnosed with cancer and was depressed because of it. Nobody had bothered to tell me. FML
Today, it's my birthday. My grandmother died yesterday. We were close and she basically raised me. FML
Today, my grandma wasn't feeling well, so I went to her house to check on her. After about 20 minutes, I knew she was feeling better when she looked at me and said, "So, do you have a boyfriend yet? I pray every night that I get to live long enough to see you with a boyfriend." FML
Today, I saw an old friend while out and about. Since I don't leave the house very often, my friend was surprised to see me in person. He jokingly asked if someone was dying, and I cried in response. I was in fact going to the hospital to say goodbye to my grandma. FML
Today, at the end of my great grandmother's funeral, her daughter (my grandma) told me and my mother that she doesn’t have a reason to come back and visit anymore, and that everyone in her life is now gone. FML
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Yudith 28
It's great that you're feeling well! Now you can go to the park with grandma, play paintball with grandma, ride a boat with grandma, swim in cooked macaroni with grandma, play video games with grandma, have a mani-pedi with grandma, etc.
bleachedraven 14
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Yudith 28
It's great that you're feeling well! Now you can go to the park with grandma, play paintball with grandma, ride a boat with grandma, swim in cooked macaroni with grandma, play video games with grandma, have a mani-pedi with grandma, etc.
bleachedraven 14
I absolutely love this answer!
1known 34
@Yudith is absolutely right. So get the most of that time with her! As a French author, Anne-Dauphine Julliand, who lost her children very early because of a grave decease wrote it: add life to the days when you can’t add days to a life. And you never know what might happen. A French woman just wrote (in the French edition of Slate, perhaps it has been translated) how she spent her grandmother’s last days. Doctors told her she would die within a few days, at most weeks. She decided to take her grand-mother out of her nursing home and went on a tour of Europe with her in a camper van. Her grandma lived three more years and died with a smile on her face.
ElitistKarma23 4
I commend you for coming out of your depression! don't let this hold you back. we will all die, eventually. and, as awful as this may sound, it's sometimes good to know approx. how much time you have left. the last time I saw my grandma, I was mad at her and didn't say I love you when I left. biggest mistake of my life. make a point to make this a positive in your life. do fun things with her and enjoy your time together ❤