Today, I just realized the last time I showered was while my grandma was still alive. My grandma died four months ago. Depression really does a number on you without you noticing. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I realized that I haven’t showered in a week. I feel disgusted that I took so long to notice, it didn’t even cross my mind at all. Due to my depression, I’ve lost all motivation. FML
Today, I just came out of a two-year long depression. I'm finally starting to feel normal, so of course I get a message that my grandmother might have less than a year to live. FML
Today, I told my mom I wanted to see a doctor, because I feel like I’m slipping into depression. I told her I was so sad, I didn’t shower for 4 days. Her response? “I don’t believe that. You’ve always had great hygiene!” Duh, I’m not myself lately! Thanks for noticing. FML
Today, it's been a month since my grandma passed away. Up until that point, I'd been visiting her regularly to make sure she was doing okay, and to get out of the house for a change. Now that she's gone, I have one less reason to leave the house. My life is even more dull than before. I want to go back. FML
Today, I got jumpscared, by my freshly-bathed grandma coming out of the bathroom without a towel on. FML
Today, I confided to my grandma that I'm suffering from depression and I feel like a burden to everyone. She replied that her grandpa used to suffer from depression too, but that he'd cured himself in the end, namely by committing suicide. Thanks, grandma, thanks. FML
Today, after months of taking care of my grandma after a surgery, the doctors gave her a clean bill of health, and I finally got to sleep in my own bed. She passed away while I was at home. FML
Today, I bitched out my grandmother, who lives with my family, for being lazy and laying in bed until 6-7pm for the past month. When I was done, she told me she had been diagnosed with cancer and was depressed because of it. Nobody had bothered to tell me. FML
Today, it's officially been a year since my grandma passed away. I still have the occasional dream where I go to her house and she's right there, waiting for me, after which I wake up sobbing because it will never happen again. I don't wanna be an adult anymore. FML
Today, without telling me, my mom dropped me off at my grandmother's house, and drove off. Now I'm supposed to spend the next month with her. Guess she forgot my grandma died six weeks ago. FML
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goodsoup 3
I’m sorry you’re going through this. I really hope you’re able to get the help you need and deserve
emmalou 19
you choose ur life, this isn't something happening to you that's out of your control, enjoy your life for your grandma
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RichardPencil 32
I wonder which one of you smells worse now. Just in theory -- I don't need to smell you both to decide.
emmalou 19
That's dark man
tiptoppc 21
So’s a coffin. At least OP isn’t in one. Then again, depression can be a fate worse than death that leaves you longing for the grave…
goodsoup 3
I’m sorry you’re going through this. I really hope you’re able to get the help you need and deserve
D J's MOM 17
I'm so sorry, but at least I hope you're wiped up.
emmalou 19
you choose ur life, this isn't something happening to you that's out of your control, enjoy your life for your grandma
DirtySalamander 9
the pain doesn't get better when a family member dies. Trust me. but you have to keep going and move on.
FluffythePink 23
🫂 Now go scrub up and remember that it really does feel good. You always forget just how good when everything is too much. I found that using music to meditate in the bath for an hour a day really helped. Mentally and physically. The meditation takes some practice to get into the habit of but it gives you an hour's break from everything once you get the trick of it. I like HOT baths and then sitting steaming in the cold. It's fantastic in winter. It triggers all the good brain juices that Saunas and ice baths do and the daily boil helps stop the worst of the self neglect. I made it a ritual thing with fancy bubbles and candles and a specific play list that lasts for an hour. If you are a shower person, turn the water ice cold for at least the count of 30 Mississippi's half way through, warm back up again and then stretch out on the bed to air dry with the music for an hour. It's one hell of shock to the system so don't if you have any heart or lung problems without checking with your Dr first. It won't fix things but it really can help to deal with them on a daily basis.
angeleyes0724 10
https://youtu.be/L3snfamyQ6M?si=1IdX9qDw6sSZbp8m You are not alone. I hope this helps. 💗💗