Today, I called 911 and got taken to hospital via ambulance after a suicide attempt. When I called my mom, the first thing she asked was, "How much is the ambulance going to cost?" FML
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Today, my parents screamed at me for cutting my wrists. They asked me if I wanted a therapist. I said that I didn't know. Then my mom said, "But wait, it's going to cost a lot of money!" FML
Today, a police officer stopped me and told me he got an anonymous tip that I was going to kill myself. I wasnt. Protocol says he had to bring me straight to a hospital where I explained that someone was messing with me. nobody listened. Now I have a hospital bill for $2,250. FML
Today, my mother took a bunch of sleeping pills, then went driving. I followed her and dialed 911. Now she thinks that I was "trying to get her arrested," and she refuses to talk to me ever again. FML
Today, I got home from hospital after being sent there for suicidal intentions because I'm poor, chronically ill and want out of my life. Five hours later, I was sent home after being given one Valium and a taxi ordered, that I had to pay for. FML
Today, I was feeling suicidal and needed to talk to someone about it, so I called up the only person in the world who cares about me: my mom. Or so I thought. Her immediate response was, “You should go ahead and end it.” FML
Today, I went into labor, and my husband wasn't answering his phone. I called my sister to ask her to drive me to the hospital but she said she'd only do it if I paid her $1000. I had to dial 911, and almost gave birth in my bathroom in process. FML
Today, I told my mom I loved her and she asked if I was going to kill myself. FML
Today, I was released from hospital after being in a car accident. I used the phone book to call people I know to get a ride home, as my wallet and cellphone were still in the wrecked car. I had called my mom to come get me, but her response was "I don't feel like it." I live with her. FML
Today, in a state of severe depression and fearing I might do the worst, I called my local suicide helpline. I was put on hold. FML
Today, I had a seizure, and as they were loading me into the ambulance, drooling on myself, I clearly heard my mother ask the ambulance crew if they’d mind swinging by the church on the way to the hospital, you know, in case it turns out I’m not sick, just possessed by the devil. FML
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Kurliez408 32
hope things get better for you op
demix_fml 32
I hope you’re getting the help you need.
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cbchawks 14
try harder next time
Envy22 32
Praying for you. I hope things get better for you. There’s always Celebrate Recovery meetings at various churches. I find that has helped me. Anyone can come to Celebrate Recovery. Some people go for addictions, others go for help with anxiety and depression and even other issues.
xxWTFxx1981 23
Well if you don't care about your own well being why should anyone else. Life is a blessing I have visited countries where most of the population is starving to death impoverished to the point where they live in a hovel of a hut that smells like shit because their bathroom is a hole in the ground next to where they sleep and they fight for life every day and some of them still smiling as I walked by so sorry if I can't manage to feel sorry for you either.
Gofuckyourself 24
You know, you make quite the valid point. However, you should never judge someone elses journey. OP only talked about making an attempt and calling the police but theres no backstory. The countries you have visited, my heart goes out to them. Their quality of life may be poor, but they are resilient as ****. And that's how we should all be, regardless of what comes our way.
raven_of_azarath 35
Other people having it worse doesn’t negate OP’s feelings, especially since depression is often due to a chemical imbalance in the brain.
Sonotsuave 37
Please, please get the help you need. Understand that the world is a puzzle and people fit the pieces together, and we need all the pieces, including you. I’ve had episodes of feeling depressed, but trust me you can find a lifestyle of happiness and positivity if you seek it out. Get help please and shame on your mom for having such a reaction. You are loved and one day you will get to a place where you can have inner peace. Work towards making things better for yourself, not giving up and doing something irrational.
Gofuckyourself 24
This was honestly so beautiful! You're an amazing soul! If you ever need someone to talk to about your depression, please send me a message.
tounces7 28
...you called 911? Isn't it generally someone else who calls?
Gofuckyourself 24
Not necessarily. Clearly OP did not want to die. I'm assuming they had thoughts, went through with something, and realized they did not want to die, they just wanted the pain to end.
nichollelovins 18
listen to the song "Ghost By Badflower" there is a lyric that says "maybe I didnt really wanna die." you may understand.... watch the video as well.
WereDictionary 3
"Yeah mom I get you. Im dying to know that myself"
thelittlem 15
I feel like if you wanted her to care more about it you didn't actually want to kill yourself.
Gofuckyourself 24
That's not how mental health works.
xica_sp4ever 18
It kindve is once you think about how you’re affecting others while you’re hurting.
GamerChickxoxo 16
When i found out an ex had brain cancer around 6 years ago,i didn't take it well, life had already dragged me through hell and i was ready to give up.I took every drug i had in my stash,wokeup having seizures, blacking out again and wokeup a few days later in hospital with a ventilator and on dialysis. I'm not going to say life gets better, because sometimes it doesn't. One of the best ways to keep on going is to make some goals These goals become the anchors keeping you here. Make a few moderately difficult goals to keep your mind on the right track. Try to distance yourself from the people and things in life making you depressed upset ect, the things causing you pain, if you can.
Gofuckyourself 24
Wow, it takes a lot of courage to open up so I feel that you're very brave for doing that. I'm so happy that you're here today.
DKING123456789 16
I don’t think you deserve it but I’m not gonna say life sucks cause what you were thinking about was every selfish and my sister went through the same shit. Think about others before yourself sorry🤷🏽♂️
raven_of_azarath 35
Yes, suicide is selfish, but people with suicidal thoughts aren’t thinking logically. From my personal experience, reasons could be thinking of others first so much that it’s detremental to myself, thinking it’s better for those around me than if I were still alive, or just being too alone in the world with this burden. It’s entirely possible for a person to commit suicide thinking they are thinking of others first. On another note, if someone’s depression is that bad, they shouldn’t think of others. They need to focus on themself and on getting the help they need to get better.
cswaz 7
What kind of mom says that shit