Today, my mum wants me to see a psychologist because I've been acting strange lately. If by "strange" she means "not wanting to die any more", then sure. But thanks, I could've used that psychologist 3 years ago when I asked for one. FML
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Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I finally convinced my mum to take me to a psychologist. As soon as he sat me down and asked me how I was doing, my mum burst into tears and went on a rant about how her life is terrible and she regrets everything. I was asked to sit in the waiting room. She used up my whole hour. FML
Today, my mother threw a fit because the psychologist she got me suggested I visit a psychiatrist. Apparently, it's my fault because I "choose" to be so "crazy". FML
Today, my mom read my diary. Then she frantically booked me an appointment with a psychiatrist. FML
Today, going to my psychiatrist's appointment for my PTSD and depression, my mother yelled about how useless I am and how I torture her existence with my "abnormalities." She told the doctor how much I've improved and become such a delight at home for her and our family. FML
Today, my mum's response to my psycho sister being angry and threatening my partner, was that I should make her angry at me since she needs someone to hate, and I'm the default, so I handle it better anyway. This was after I asked her to get my sister professional help, and she denied the need. FML
Today, my moms are driving me mad. My biological mom, a therapist, keeps telling me I need to try new things because life is short. My non-biological mom, a doctor, keeps telling me everything new I want to try has health risks that will shorten my life even further. FML
Today, my parents screamed at me for cutting my wrists. They asked me if I wanted a therapist. I said that I didn't know. Then my mom said, "But wait, it's going to cost a lot of money!" FML
Today, my mom sternly told me that she would no longer make doctor's appointments for me, since I need to do them myself. I've been staring at the phone for thirty minutes, crying from anxiety. I'm 27 and the most pathetic man alive. FML
Today, after finally seeing a psychologist about the death of my dad and spending the longest hour of my life confessing every thought I've experienced in the 6 years since his passing, my psychologist asked me if I was walking home or if my dad would be picking me up. FML
Today, my mom told me I'm the reason she's going to kill herself one day. FML
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Kermy1113 23
At least you made it through those years! You're still here and fought without a psychologist and I applaud you and your strength
emeraldisle 30
I'm glad you're doing better OP. It's a shame your mom doesn't understand.
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Kermy1113 23
At least you made it through those years! You're still here and fought without a psychologist and I applaud you and your strength
TrickyDeath 14
Yeah, you might wanna talk to the psychologist about the fact that this is the deal at all. I've been in the same boat and these issues tend to regurgitate if the environment doesn't change.
emeraldisle 30
I'm glad you're doing better OP. It's a shame your mom doesn't understand.
may14th 26
You've accomplished something so great, OP! But a lot of times others don't really understand our feelings. She may think you're being fake happy to hide your previous thoughts? I don't know.
llamadramas 20
a psychologist might just be good for someone to talk to, but glad you're doing better op!
hkhan24 23
She sounds so clueless..
Brandi_Faith 34
I think it would be good to take her up on that offer. Just because you are handling things right now doesn't mean that therapy is unnecessary. You've gone through some tough stuff and it may be good to talk that through. And just because you don't want to kill yourself right now doesn't mean you're necessarily happy with life or doing great either; maybe a therapist can help you get to an even better & happier spot then you are now. Plus, if for some reason you were to ever relapse (which I hope never happens) you would already have access to someone that can help and already knows you well. And I'm sure you'd like to vent about mom anyways. ;) Good luck op!
isuckwithnames 22
I completely agree. Mental health is like strep. It'll really suck (for lack of a better word) for a while and after its gone, it can come back and suck all over again. So you really should get the help.
isuckwithnames 22
Then bitch your mom out for not getting help earlier.
Comrox 19
I'm sorry you didn't get the help you needed when you asked for it OP. Depression is hard. Much respect to you for finding the light in your life again. :)
Seabass_Chan 33
As much as I'd like to rage against the OP's mother for not taking her suicidal daughter to get help when she asked for it, I can't help but feel we need more details first... For one, what if she honestly couldn't afford it? I've never been to any South African countries, but I know at least in the U.S. that the mental health care system for youth and adults are virtually non existent. If you're not an immediate threat to anything your condition may as well not exist and SOME organizations that can provide financial support will do anything to save money, from releasing someone unstable to having a child go into residency across the country, even if the family can't move to be with them. What I'm saying is that the mother might not have had any money to spare despite wanting to get OP help, and maybe she's more financially secure and decided to do something when she felt concerned again. Then again, I've been known to give the benefit of the doubt to those who didn't deserve it.
Dale_shackleford 13
The us healthcare system has plenty of problems, but there are definitely more qualified metal healthcare professionals that we can even employ at the moment. Also, in many cases insurance covers it, especially if things like suicide are involved. Also, kids are on their parents insurance, they don't need to go and buy their own as kids. EDIT: Even if she couldn't afford it, that's no excuse to not try to get help.
Ficu 12
I understand all too much. I agreed to go see a therapist at the tail end of 17, and my mothers reaction? Give it a few months so I can do it on my own. I agreed because I thought I'd be getting her help, and it never got done. And I've since come to realize it wouldn't really have made a difference anyway: The issue was the environment, go figure. (This has convergent validation from a sibling of mine that moved out.)
iamahappypenguin 14
I can feel your pain OP. I was suffering from depression couple years back and my parents didn't understand it too. And now I'm total ****** up and went to a psychiatrist by myself.