Today, I had to tell my doctor the real reason why I can't sleep at night for him to prescribe me anymore Ambien: I still have the irrational fear that there are monsters in the closet. I'm 22. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I haven't had any real sleep in 4 days because I am an insomniac. My father is also an insomniac but he takes Ambien to get his rest. Me? I'm stuck staring at the ceiling for hours because he won't let me take any kind of medication, because he doesn't want me "getting addicted." FML
Today, I had to clean out my room because I was having a sleepover. Only, I've not been in here for months since I've spent every night in my mom's room because I'm too scared to sleep alone. FML
Today, I reached a total of three doctors, one therapist, one psychiatrist, and five prescribed medications, all because my body refuses to let me sleep. FML
Today, just like every other night, I can't sleep. even after taking prescription sleep medication, all because my anxiety won't let me sleep. Why do I have anxiety? Because I don't sleep. FML
Today, I had to explain to my gaming friends that I can't be a night owl anymore because of a major health scare where I was suddenly unable to sleep at all. I now have to take sleeping pills every night and abide by a strict sleeping schedule. My friends are bummed out, and I feel bad for them. Fuck insomnia. FML
Today, I have to sleep in another room, with the door closed, because if I don't, my girlfriend's snoring will keep me awake. I was diagnosed with chronic insomnia because of this. FML
Today, after I'd finally decided to see a doctor about my anxiety and insomnia, I was so nervous about what the doctor would think of me that I had anxiety attacks that kept me from sleeping a wink all night. I ended up oversleeping and missing the appointment I was so nervous about. FML
Today, I'm officially at the point where I would do literally anything to have a pleasant dream, or at least one that's not absolutely fucking terrifying. I now know where the irrational fear of sleeping comes from. Anxiety can go fuck a duck. FML
Today, it hit me that I'm incredibly pathetic, when at the age of 21, I tucked my stuffed animals into bed with me, facing in different directions so they could keep watch for monsters while I slept. FML
Today, after months of believing my house is haunted, and years of being scared of the dark, I finally had to admit to myself that the only way I can go to the bathroom in the middle of the night is if my cat follows me and sits outside the door. I'm 23. FML
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deadlyassdaniel 0
Its probably just R kelly . He has been trapped in that closet for a while.
Bemajinn 0
this is a definite FYL, you can't choose what you're scared of, even if it's not real. hence why it's called an "irrational" fear.
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skyeyez9 25
Not a monster. Probably a ghost :)
GiggittyGoo69 0
u all have too many issues lol. I feel for ya though.
hedgehogs 0
Well, how do you or your doctor know that there aren't?
WannabeJew 0
I think most adults, whether or not they admit it, have irrational fears. I love the dark and still fear it, sometimes. I freak out when I'm walking through my pitch black apartment at night. I have a completely irrational fear of robbers, too. I have to have everything locked, including the riot lock, to sleep well. I've never been robbed and my apartment is unlikely to be robbed, because I live above a printing company--not exactly a lucrative heist. But these fears don't debilitate me. I master them as well as I can, recognize they're irrational, and deal with it. I don't need sleep medication or anti-anxiety meds. Maybe you should see a psychiatrist or psychologist. I'd try a psychologist first, to try and avoid needing medication to deal with your fear. I'd go to a behaviorist, if you can find one around you.
cavies 0
Sama here. I couldnt sleep along because still have a fear of the ghosts. I had to beg my 14 year old brother to let me sleep in his room before. I had to take a shower in 5~10 mins cuz there might be ghost in the bathroom. Im afraid of being along. I moved out 2 years ago. Now I live with my bf so there's someone who can sleep with me and take shower with me. This was one of the biggest reasons I decided to have a bf. Im 21.
Lulu714 0
some one has been watching Monsters Inc.?
skyeyez9 25
mr_freak 1
there clowns under the bed 2
iDutch_21 0
Somebody has to grow a pair...
Thunderbender 2
I find it hard to believe you HAD to tell him about the monsters. You could have just said you get anxiety at night.