Today, I had to tell my doctor the real reason why I can't sleep at night for him to prescribe me anymore Ambien: I still have the irrational fear that there are monsters in the closet. I'm 22. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I haven't had any real sleep in 4 days because I am an insomniac. My father is also an insomniac but he takes Ambien to get his rest. Me? I'm stuck staring at the ceiling for hours because he won't let me take any kind of medication, because he doesn't want me "getting addicted." FML
Today, I had to clean out my room because I was having a sleepover. Only, I've not been in here for months since I've spent every night in my mom's room because I'm too scared to sleep alone. FML
Today, I reached a total of three doctors, one therapist, one psychiatrist, and five prescribed medications, all because my body refuses to let me sleep. FML
Today, just like every other night, I can't sleep. even after taking prescription sleep medication, all because my anxiety won't let me sleep. Why do I have anxiety? Because I don't sleep. FML
Today, I had to explain to my gaming friends that I can't be a night owl anymore because of a major health scare where I was suddenly unable to sleep at all. I now have to take sleeping pills every night and abide by a strict sleeping schedule. My friends are bummed out, and I feel bad for them. Fuck insomnia. FML
Today, I have to sleep in another room, with the door closed, because if I don't, my girlfriend's snoring will keep me awake. I was diagnosed with chronic insomnia because of this. FML
Today, after I'd finally decided to see a doctor about my anxiety and insomnia, I was so nervous about what the doctor would think of me that I had anxiety attacks that kept me from sleeping a wink all night. I ended up oversleeping and missing the appointment I was so nervous about. FML
Today, I'm officially at the point where I would do literally anything to have a pleasant dream, or at least one that's not absolutely fucking terrifying. I now know where the irrational fear of sleeping comes from. Anxiety can go fuck a duck. FML
Today, it hit me that I'm incredibly pathetic, when at the age of 21, I tucked my stuffed animals into bed with me, facing in different directions so they could keep watch for monsters while I slept. FML
Today, after months of believing my house is haunted, and years of being scared of the dark, I finally had to admit to myself that the only way I can go to the bathroom in the middle of the night is if my cat follows me and sits outside the door. I'm 23. FML
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deadlyassdaniel 0
Its probably just R kelly . He has been trapped in that closet for a while.
Bemajinn 0
this is a definite FYL, you can't choose what you're scared of, even if it's not real. hence why it's called an "irrational" fear.
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AttitudeMel 4
I was afraid to look at the mirror for the longest time and still sometime but that's because on the back of our mind we are all scared to run into a ghost. Now having said that, a monster..... in your closet....
nerdsgetmehot 23
I'm 21 and I'm afraid at night, too-- not really about monsters, though. More like serial killers, rapists, etc. I feel a little silly.
TheIrishJaneDoe 9
Mine has always been kidnappers. :o I had recurring nightmares about being kidnapped for years. At the height of it, I had to buy a new car, so I got a truck. No backseat. I figured out the root of it, though, and then they stopped. It still lingers sometimes, but like you, I know it's silly now.
Spastastic 6
I hope you don't watch the show Criminal Minds, then, nerds. That would make it so much worse.
nerdsgetmehot 23
Oh man, Jane, recurring nightmares like that are so awful! It's good that you were eventually able to stop them, though! Luckily I don't really have nightmares anymore either, but sometimes I admittedly stay awake longer than I'd like-- just listening to every creak the house makes and being irrationally scared. :P #95 Haha! I avoid shows like that for that reason...
TheIrishJaneDoe 9
Spas, I couldn't watch shows like CM and SVU for a long time for that reason. But my love of a good mystery eventually overcame my distubance. I used to watch CourtTV constantly, but I've seen 'em all now. I think I might make a decent investigator, if I wasn't so soft-hearted. Maybe writing mysteries would be a better occupation for me. :) nerds, I live in an old house converted into apartments, and my downstairs neighbor is, er, rather large. She keeps weird hours, too. I can't let the creaks get to me or I'd never sleep!
Mimorie17 12
I dont see a problem, im sixteen and still afraid of the dark. Big deal. Everyone has fears that other people thing are stupid. Like being afraid of spiders. Step on it lol.
JokeMeister 0
You are probably dependent on them. Slow Down.
Ray_of_midnight 23
Tell him you have an Anxiety Closet with a purple snorklewacker in it.
christyxoxo 8
i agree with 14. monsters aren't all that bad once you watch monsters inc. [;
Ju99ernaut94 0
damn i guess reading goosebump books when u were young really does leave a mark on you do you believe in the easter bunny ?
Zebidee 9
Gah - Ambien is a ******* terrifying drug...
kittylover2010 0
agreed
NewtonsApple 0
the only monster in that closet is you screaming and banging to come out of there.....(pun intended)
KittyLover09 0
ambien is BAD it will make you hallucinate it made me hallucinate big time it can make you suicidal too, i suggest switching to lunesta, unless you like drugs that make you want to kill yourself and make you see things that are not real you need help,seriously STAY AWAY FROM AAMBIEN!