Today, I finally built up the courage to seek professional help for my eating disorder. Apparently I don't meet the criteria, so I was denied help and got sent away. So basically, I'll have to get even sicker for them to take me seriously. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, I went to the doctor with some serious physical symptoms that amount to being effectively disabled. She didn’t even ask any questions or examine me before telling me it was all purely psychological. I barely managed to convince her to at least order some blood tests, as a formality. FML
Today, after four years of anorexia and lots of recovery, my parents took me out to dinner with my counselor and whole family to celebrate my progress. I ended up eating something that made me vomit everything I ate. My parents now think I am bulmic and are sending me back to counseling. FML
Today, and every time I meet a new therapist for support, I’m told that my issues are out of their scope of practice, and I get referred to someone who’s supposed to more experienced, and then get told the same thing. I’m too fucked up to even get the therapy I need to get better. FML
Today, after I skipped dessert for the third day in a row, my mom cornered me and accused me of being anorexic. I'm actually not far off being clinically obese and I'm just trying to diet, but nothing I say will convince her. She wants me to see a psychiatrist about a disorder I don't even have. FML
Today, I finally broke down and told my mom that I'd relapsed with my eating disorder. She told me to quit whining and eat a burger, because she didn't want to pay for another therapy session. FML
Today, I admitted to my parents that I have an eating disorder. Instead of trying to help, my mom stared at me and said, "Duh". FML
Today, I told my mom that I'm bulimic and have been for a few years, and that I needed help. She responded by saying, "Well that's clearly not working for you. Why don't you try anorexia?" She then patted me on the head, smiled, and walked away. FML
Today, despite begging my parents to get food other than diet and weight loss stuff, they refused. I'm bullied for being skinny on a daily basis. FML
Today, after years of me trying to get better, I finally have to admit that I'm severely disabled, as I saw it on my assistance paperwork. FML
Today, after struggling with anorexia for months, I got food poisoning. FML
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Top comments
Nikki 17
But you’ve acknowledged it and you’ve taken the hardest step to getting better, don’t let shitty health care systems set you back now, keep looking for better help
Rian Lloyd 12
This happened to me when I first sought help for my eating disorder too. Sadly, services are very stretched so they prioritise based on severity criteria - an unfortunate truth, but they have to prioritise who is essentially most at risk of death. This isn't personal, or saying you're not good enough somehow - it's risk management. I know it must be incredibly disheartening, but do keep trying. I did. A year later, I re-accessed the service I'd originally tried (I had, sadly gotten worse and then met their criteria), and got the help I needed. Changed my life and I've now been recovered for almost a decade.
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Nikki 17
But you’ve acknowledged it and you’ve taken the hardest step to getting better, don’t let shitty health care systems set you back now, keep looking for better help
Rian Lloyd 12
This happened to me when I first sought help for my eating disorder too. Sadly, services are very stretched so they prioritise based on severity criteria - an unfortunate truth, but they have to prioritise who is essentially most at risk of death. This isn't personal, or saying you're not good enough somehow - it's risk management. I know it must be incredibly disheartening, but do keep trying. I did. A year later, I re-accessed the service I'd originally tried (I had, sadly gotten worse and then met their criteria), and got the help I needed. Changed my life and I've now been recovered for almost a decade.
Royal Sataness 4
Try another place. Don't get discouraged. someone out there will have the resources to help before you get worse. you've taken the hardest step and admitted there's a problem. your recovery is already started. recruit loved ones to help in the mean time until you find the right professional. and don't just settle for anyone, find the right fit. you can do this.
RichardPencil 32
Then get sicker. I've known people who needed to intentionally get fatter to qualify for gastric bypass surgery. You want to play in our ******-up health care game, you gotta play by their ******-up rules.