Today, I hate fucking existing. I could literally die right now and know one would ever even check on me for months. I’ve literally gone 4 months with no work, locked in my house the whole time, and never received a text, phone call, or a knock at the door. Not a single person thought about me. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, my depression has reached the point where I'm not sure if I'm even living anymore. Sure, I'm very much alive and able to type this, but I feel as though I'm just existing. Taking up space. Doing nothing. I can't be alone here, right? FML
Today, I’ve been unemployed for a year since graduating. I haven’t been able to find a job or feel any joy in my life, and have been stuck at home, completely relying on my parents, but now they’re gonna kick me out. I’ve turned into a complete failure, I can’t even kill myself because I’m not brave enough. FML
Today, happy birthday to me. Any calls from my friends? Nope. Socials? Not even one. My wife and daughter spent any time with me? Couldn’t even be bothered to put their phones down during dinner. Not a single person on God’s green earth gives a shit about me. FML
Today, I wrote a post about how I was thinking of attempting suicide. Not one single person contacted me to see if I was alright. FML
Today, I realised that if I died, no one would care. I know this because when I called my partner distressed last night, he told me he needed to sleep and hung up in less than 45 seconds, and a friend told me to call lifeline. I haven’t heard from either of them since. FML
Today, I realized that I could have slept all day yesterday and it would've changed nothing. I don't talk to anyone and I don't do anything. My presence or lack of presence in this world means nothing and affects nobody. FML
Today, I found out I'm "no longer under consideration" for all 8 of the jobs I recently applied for. I'm broke and stuck living with my ex, who's got a new boyfriend. I hate my life and myself, wish I was dead every day, and am stuck in retail hell for the foreseeable future. I barely eat and exist only to work and sleep. FML
Today, I’m so lonely and sick of living that I wish my fictional comfort character was real, only so someone would hug me and tell me I’ll be okay, even if they were lying. FML
Today, even after applying to literally hundreds of jobs a week for the past 6 months, I still can't get a job. Unemployment is almost gone, and I won't be able to afford my medication. I also can't figure out a painless way to kill myself. FML
Today, I was disowned in my family because of the pandemic, after I refused to quit my job and live at my parents house, with them supporting my family, so now no one in my family has acknowledged my existence since August 2020. FML
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bigredmonkeybutt 30
How many people did you text, call, or visit during that time?
IHaveThePower 18
So as a former Certified Hermit... Finding a hobby and going out to meet other people and Do The Hobby (bowling, knitting group, horse riding, etc) is really helpful. Even just going outside and going to a bar or casino or something helps. Just start with one conversation and work your way up. There's shit-all you can do about no one calling you, but if you go introduce yourself to other people, it stops mattering as much because your brain is getting the Social Dopamine anyway.
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bigredmonkeybutt 30
How many people did you text, call, or visit during that time?
IHaveThePower 18
So as a former Certified Hermit... Finding a hobby and going out to meet other people and Do The Hobby (bowling, knitting group, horse riding, etc) is really helpful. Even just going outside and going to a bar or casino or something helps. Just start with one conversation and work your way up. There's shit-all you can do about no one calling you, but if you go introduce yourself to other people, it stops mattering as much because your brain is getting the Social Dopamine anyway.
BurnInDemonFire 39
Who complains about finding Heaven?
jayrock121 2
trust me, in the same boat kinda. I do qork but after that complete silence till nxt day
Mas Stewart 5
Sometimes a little prolonged alone time is good. But do go out a bit, get a little social dopamine, just because no one writes or text means you should off yourself. There's soo much to do even when you're alone.