Today, it was my final meeting with my psychologist who was helping me with my bipolar disorder. I just found out that he committed suicide. FML
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Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I found out the psychiatrist who treats me for bipolar disorder died. He committed suicide. FML
Today, my psychologist broke up with me, professionally. It's alright though, she told me it's her, not me. FML
Today, my therapist died from a heart attack, all while telling me not to stress over anything. FML
Today, my psychologist canceled our appointment due to Covid. I'm a mess and was looking forward to our meeting, it's the only constant thing in my life. FML
Today, I reduced my psychologist to tears. FML
Today, my psychiatrist of 6 years suddenly and out of nowhere told me I need to see someone else. She gave me the equivalent of the "it's not you, it's me" speech. Actually her assistant told me via email. I basically got broken up with by someone I was paying a lot of money to talk to. FML
Today, my psychiatrist literally said the words, ”I don’t know how to help you anymore” to me. I have never felt more hopeless. FML
Today, I finally decided to open up to my supervisor about my horrible depression. I was crying my eyes out in her office when she announced that she had to leave and go to a meeting, leaving me to cry alone in her office. FML
Today, my psychiatrist said, "Well, good luck." at the end of my appointment. FML
Today, I found out my cousin - who suffers from bipolar disorder - shot herself in the chest and has only a 20 percent chance of living. I told my boyfriend, while crying, and he held me for a few minutes. As soon as I got quiet, he pulled out his iPhone and started playing a shooter game. FML
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Yunie_fml 0
That's horrible... whoever said you deserved that one is an asshole.
Melanie_fml 0
Sometimes the people best at helping others, cannot help themselves. I've known MANY people who had good, solid relationship advice...and had the worst relationships. They couldn't do for themselves, but they help/ed a lot of people. I would also suggest learning from his last lesson; as bad as you feel about him doing this...your family & friends would go through that but a million times *worse* if you had taken your own life. Pretty awful stuff. :(
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gregthestrange 3
that sucks.... I could never be a shrink... it takes a special kind of person to be able to cope with all the depressing stuff they hear all day long.... hopefully everything works out for you
berii 0
That. Is. EFFED. with a freakin' captial EFFED...
timlikescookies 0
take some lithium carbonate
villainess 0
Wow. That's horrible. I'm so sorry.
Emika_fml 0
I won't say fake right off the bat, but.... the way it's written sounds sketchy. A "final meeting"? Why are you no longer meeting? Either he cured you of your bipolar disorder (not likely), or you're switching to someone new? And if you're switching anyway, it's not really a FYL for you... just his family.
mdragon1023 0
don't worry 'bout it man. you're still alive and kicking. look up. there's always hope!
ree_fml 0
Lots of psychologists have disorders themselves that they don't tell their patients about. I'm studying to be a therapist, and I have bipolar and borderline personality disorder. Even if they don't have disorders, they usually have their own therapists, like #28 said, because it's a hard job listening to everyone's problems all day. They need to talk about stuff, too! It's sad that he was struggling with his own mental issues, but don't let it reflect on yourself in any way. Grieve, but move on. Find a new therapist if you feel your bipolar isn't under control, or seek out a grief counselor if you need to speak about your psychologist's death. I can't even imagine the shock of finding out something like that... Good luck to you.
ree_fml 0
Also, to #46... a final meeting really isn't that out of the ordinary in this field. Therapists aren't a forever thing. They can outgrow each other, financial needs change, or one of them moves. People can be a part of therapy programs that last for a specific amount of time with a predetermined last session. It doesn't sound fake to me at all.
noclevername 0
... "**** your life"? I don't wish to sound insensitive, but if it was to be your last meeting, how much would it have done for you? It's a bit heartless and tacky to look at it in terms of yourself rather than noticing another human was unhappy enough to take his life, especially on a site like this which is meant for cheap laughs. (And there's nothing at all wrong with cheap laughs.)
acrho 0
As someone who is bipolar, I can only imagine how rough this is (btw, I read "I had my final meeting with him, he committed suicide" as the suicide is the reason for the final meeting, but that may just be my interpretation...I know I'll never be done with psychology and psychiatry because of the disorder). It's so hard to establish that trust to start out with and when you're dealing with your own suicidal thoughts with this person you make the assumption that they are stable ground. Having someone you've entrusted do something that your disorder can push you to can certainly throw you for a loop. Just keep focused on treatment and moving forward. For those who say a final treatment would mean it's not a FML, patients do see psychologists and psychiatrists as human and feel the pain of that loss of human life. This was a bond created over time and moving on is okay with the knowledge that the person is still there, but when it's a sudden, complete loss, it can be horrific. Particularly with this disorder which thrives on chaos of any type as fodder for a flare-up.