Today, I am struggling with exhaustion due to insomnia. The reason I cannot sleep is crippling anxiety - not about my complicated romantic situation, my pileup of work, or even my relationship with my father. No, I'm afraid of a blind ship captain I saw in a dream three days ago. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, I went to the hospital for constant dizziness and insomnia, and was diagnosed with anxiety. I figured out that the main source of my anxiety is not my job but my boyfriend, who has avoidant personality, which makes him constantly refuse almost everything that I request. He's a guy who just doesn't know how to show his love. FML
Today, I had to accept that my anxiety affects me 24/7, even when while I'm sleeping. I genuinely can't remember the last time I had a pleasant dream after falling asleep. FML
Today, my anxiety decided to play a new trick: When I'm trying to go to sleep, I get anxious about having nightmares. It sure does wonders for my insomnia, which I've otherwise completely controlled. FML
Today, just like every other night, I can't sleep. even after taking prescription sleep medication, all because my anxiety won't let me sleep. Why do I have anxiety? Because I don't sleep. FML
Today, I was finally diagnosed with insomnia. The trouble is, because of my physical disability, I also have diagnosed chronic fatigue. Barely can stay awake during the day, can't sleep at night. FML
Today, after I'd finally decided to see a doctor about my anxiety and insomnia, I was so nervous about what the doctor would think of me that I had anxiety attacks that kept me from sleeping a wink all night. I ended up oversleeping and missing the appointment I was so nervous about. FML
Today, I'm officially at the point where I would do literally anything to have a pleasant dream, or at least one that's not absolutely fucking terrifying. I now know where the irrational fear of sleeping comes from. Anxiety can go fuck a duck. FML
Today, I've known for a long time that I generally only wake up at ungodly hours in the night when something is wrong with me. Since last week, I've been doing this pretty much every night. Only now, I can't figure out what's wrong. Consequently, my anxiety is now keeping me awake too. FML
Today, I had a dream about sleeping, which is a dream I have frequently. I’m exhausted even when I sleep. FML
Today, after my girlfriend had a nightmare this morning, I stayed home because she has really bad anxiety issues. A couple of hours later, she's pissed because I said I would stay up, but I fell asleep. FML
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DarksideDoll 31
I didn't see that one coming..
godspeedkills 8
But if you think about it, the blind ship captain you see in your dreams could be an archetype of the anxiety you're not facing in your daily life. Now that's deep!
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player20270 32
Dreams can be either great or terrible. I completely understand what you're going through. I used to dream my boyfriend was cheating on me and became very insecure, which destroyed our relationship.
Meechiepie 13
I don't remember a lot of my dreams but when I was a kid, I definitely had a recurring nightmare that I kept me afraid of falling asleep too. Lasted for weeks before I was able to go to sleep without freaking out. Just try to keep your mind occupied while you go to sleep. Sometimes watching TV (with a timer on if you're able), or putting on your alarm clock radio on (these usually have timers on them too) to have some distraction helps. Good luck getting to sleep OP!
captainsmegma 12
Whew (wiping brow sarcasticly). Glad your not losing sleep over something real. Stiff drink and a good sex right before bed should help.
Nimor 25
/facepalm
gogoakira 7
dont follow a blind captain, your father dont know where hes going, do u? probably not
missalyssaxo 16
He can't be too much of a threat if he's blind... And a figment of your imagination.
accidentprone41 3
That is not insomnia. I have insomnia there is not a reason why I can't sleep I just can. You had a nightmare meaning you are too anxious or afraid to go back to sleep. There is a reason.
minutestomadness 5
I had a creepy dream about demons, turns out its a symbol for a big life change, try looking up some symbols of the dream..made me feel a TON better
BlobfishUnite 14
Well, I didn't see this one coming...
sthrnbell 9
U need to get some professional help with your mental issues.for real