Today, I am struggling with exhaustion due to insomnia. The reason I cannot sleep is crippling anxiety - not about my complicated romantic situation, my pileup of work, or even my relationship with my father. No, I'm afraid of a blind ship captain I saw in a dream three days ago. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I went to the hospital for constant dizziness and insomnia, and was diagnosed with anxiety. I figured out that the main source of my anxiety is not my job but my boyfriend, who has avoidant personality, which makes him constantly refuse almost everything that I request. He's a guy who just doesn't know how to show his love. FML
Today, I had to accept that my anxiety affects me 24/7, even when while I'm sleeping. I genuinely can't remember the last time I had a pleasant dream after falling asleep. FML
Today, my anxiety decided to play a new trick: When I'm trying to go to sleep, I get anxious about having nightmares. It sure does wonders for my insomnia, which I've otherwise completely controlled. FML
Today, just like every other night, I can't sleep. even after taking prescription sleep medication, all because my anxiety won't let me sleep. Why do I have anxiety? Because I don't sleep. FML
Today, I was finally diagnosed with insomnia. The trouble is, because of my physical disability, I also have diagnosed chronic fatigue. Barely can stay awake during the day, can't sleep at night. FML
Today, after I'd finally decided to see a doctor about my anxiety and insomnia, I was so nervous about what the doctor would think of me that I had anxiety attacks that kept me from sleeping a wink all night. I ended up oversleeping and missing the appointment I was so nervous about. FML
Today, I'm officially at the point where I would do literally anything to have a pleasant dream, or at least one that's not absolutely fucking terrifying. I now know where the irrational fear of sleeping comes from. Anxiety can go fuck a duck. FML
Today, I've known for a long time that I generally only wake up at ungodly hours in the night when something is wrong with me. Since last week, I've been doing this pretty much every night. Only now, I can't figure out what's wrong. Consequently, my anxiety is now keeping me awake too. FML
Today, I had a dream about sleeping, which is a dream I have frequently. I’m exhausted even when I sleep. FML
Today, after my girlfriend had a nightmare this morning, I stayed home because she has really bad anxiety issues. A couple of hours later, she's pissed because I said I would stay up, but I fell asleep. FML
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DarksideDoll 31
I didn't see that one coming..
godspeedkills 8
But if you think about it, the blind ship captain you see in your dreams could be an archetype of the anxiety you're not facing in your daily life. Now that's deep!
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doubleofuck 20
I have an anxiety disorder and sometimes nightmares continue to disturb me into the waking moments of my life. I feel you OP
Jasim 17
I have AD as well, and it's really hard to live with. But meditation helped me a lot especially before sleeping. Look some on YouTube and good luck. Hope you feel better.
russfml 31
That's what happens when you eat cap'n krunch before bedtime! On a more serious note I'm sure it will pass and FYL
1ch4bod_Cr4n3 6
some dreams stick with you lol that dream must of really sucked
Chaith 16
In the OP's defense, that does sound pretty terrifying.
Jasim 17
Try to do some meditation before going to bed. It really helps.
MiLM 37
Well. That sucks.
williabnz 2
One word, zopiclone. Get some from your doctor, will sort out anxiety related insomnia.
SheepShoop_fml 20
It has been over ten years since I have crossed paths with a similar fellow in a dream. The anxiety and ensuing obsession is understood. I assume the dream did not end in a satisfactory manner, or that it was more of a nightmare for you. The former can be resolved or let go, the latter may require some personal reassurance.
vikky538 29
aren't we all scared of nightmares than real life issues...
someguyhere 12
Call me mean but I am one of the "you deserve it" people. Quit bitching about your life and fix it.
mt631 18
What are you reading FML then?
squideth 18
No, you're one of those assholes with no empathy for other human beings, especially those suffering from mental illness. Congrats, you miserable child.