Today, I realized that because of my past abusive relationship, I will never love anyone fully. In the back of my mind, I will always have a doubt, thinking that they don't want me or that I'm just a goal to achieve until they're ready to leave. It's to the point where I don't see a reason to try; everyone will leave and I'm OK with that. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I realized that for my entire life I haven't felt genuine romantic love for anyone, despite being with many. I've taken care of people and made them happy all the time, but in the end I never really loved anyone, except one person, but it's too late in my life to go back and change things. FML
Today, I realized I'm trapped. I might be heading into an abusive relationship that I won't be able to escape, but I can't leave because then I'd break his heart and I love him too much for that. FML
Today, I realized I will never find love again. I broke down after I finally realized that no woman will love me like I used to be loved. I have not dated anyone for almost 10 years. I try to go on dates, to no avail. I will forever be alone and I will forever be tortured by my loneliness. FML
Today, the guy I’ve been in love with for almost a year, who told me he “wasn’t in the right headspace” for a relationship is actually dating some girl. Every time I try to get close to a guy, they make up excuses. I’m starting to lose faith in love and think I’ll never be good enough for anyone. FML
Today, I've been single for years because I felt I could never trust anyone again. I finally opened up to someone, after she told me how much she'd loved me for quite a while. Now she ignores me like I don't even exist. Crash and burn. FML
Today, I realized that even if I want to have cute fun and admit when I was wrong, I still get "adulting sucks, get over it" when I joke that I "don't wanna grow apart or up too fast that you don't need me." Jesus, I realized after that there's no such thing as real love anymore. FML
Today, my partner of 4 years has told me that trying to be emotionally present and initiate affection from time to time is too much of a change for them to handle. I wish they had said that the first time I brought it up, instead of stringing me along. Oh, but they "love me". Just not enough to be a better person. FML
Today, after crying after remembering how horribly wrong it went, 10 years ago, with the only person I was ever able to trust enough to let them get close to me, and how no amount of therapy seems to help me, I read an FML about how nobody wants to date a 30 year-old who has never dated. I'm 29 and might as well give up. FML
Today, I realized why my depression is so bad. No matter how hard I try, I have always been a replaceable presence in everyone's lives, and I have never felt like anyone couldn't live without me. Not even family. FML
Today, I realized that in some of my early relationships the girls were so possessive and pushed for merger and marriage that they scared me, so now I can only be reliably attracted to women who don't want me. The slightest sign of interest in more than a fling and I'm out. It's been like this for 30 years. FML
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manb91gb 15
Not sure this counts as an FML, but I would highly recommend speaking with a therapist to deal with your issues. There's always light at the end of the tunnel, you just need to fight you way through the darkness.
cuz803 46
Since this is on FML, this a complaint. Highly recommend talk therapy. If it's really bad, maybe prescribed medication can help like antidepressants. Physical exercise, healthy diet and good quality sleep also helps with mental health. Don't wait, OP. Act on your problems soon so they can get better.
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manb91gb 15
Not sure this counts as an FML, but I would highly recommend speaking with a therapist to deal with your issues. There's always light at the end of the tunnel, you just need to fight you way through the darkness.
cuz803 46
Since this is on FML, this a complaint. Highly recommend talk therapy. If it's really bad, maybe prescribed medication can help like antidepressants. Physical exercise, healthy diet and good quality sleep also helps with mental health. Don't wait, OP. Act on your problems soon so they can get better.
RichardPencil 32
Of course, you'll be free to dump people when they no longer benefit you. We've become very transactional.
Billiebobbob 1
you’re amazing and he’s not.
Royal Sataness 4
same honey, same. I started solo poly dating, I'm not even trying to build with anyone anymore
electraliv 13
Me too OP, me too
ittybittyannie 12
The abuse is not your fault no one deserves that. It is however your responsibility to work on yourself & seek therapy if you want to recover because no one else can fix your self esteem problems except you
Becca198915 2
Not everyone is the same just work on your self and heal your self and the right one will come! But you have to put in the work the damage that previous relationship caused will not heal with time! It will only burn into you! Trust me I’ve been there and healing the right way and learning to love yourself again sets boundaries!
Becca198915 2
Not everyone is the same just work on your self and heal your self and the right one will come! But you have to put in the work the damage that previous relationship caused will not heal with time! You need to get help and focus on you!
Trill_Kurt 1
Welcome to the club ….