Today, I’m massively depressed and I live in a state that will prosecute you for attempted suicide, but will do nothing to help you afford mental health. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, I was talking to my professor and explained how depressed and stressed out I am. He called the police to my house because he thought that would help with my suicidal thoughts. My parents don't believe in mental health, and I want to die more. FML
Today, after years of struggling with poor mental health, my depression convinced me that no one would ever care enough about me to help if I reached out. I called the local suicide hotline anyway. They didn’t answer. Twice. FML
Today, in a state of severe depression and fearing I might do the worst, I called my local suicide helpline. I was put on hold. FML
Today, health insurance is supposed to take care of your health. Or that’s what I thought. Mine is currently pushing me towards suicide, by repeatedly asking for money I don’t have, for an insurance I don’t want, because they don’t pay for anything that actually helps me. FML
Today, I got a housekeeping warning from my landlord. After struggling with multiple serious health issues, I’ve also been dealing with a horrible case of depression as a result. When I tried to explain this to the manager, she decided to get the county involved and try to have me committed. FML
Today, the same person who tried to OD, threatens suicide monthly, and threatens to off people almost daily, called the state police on me because I had a PTSD episode. FML
Today, I went to the local emergency room, upon recommendation of my psychiatrist, because I was depressed to the point of being suicidal. They sent me home because there were no beds available. FML
Today, my psychiatrist literally said the words, ”I don’t know how to help you anymore” to me. I have never felt more hopeless. FML
Today, my parents screamed at me for being diagnosed as depressed, because I’m not allowed to be depressed, because me being depressed makes them look like bad parents who couldn’t raise a happy, normal child, so I have to be happy or I’ll be punished. FML
Today, my best friend of five years left cause I “followed them” and that made me depressed, then I couldn’t go outside or to class anymore cause I was too depressed, then my girlfriend, whom I was going to marry, left me because, you guessed it, I was too depressed. Now I’m in a mental hospital for trying to kill myself. FML
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RichardPencil 32
The state is doing mental health treatment on the cheap. Instead of getting some expensive therapist to beg you not to kill yourself, they'll just punish you if you try. It's "tough love!" Hope your state isn't the one that rhymes with Lexus. Our state government has been especially embarrassing of late.
Dumbum123 19
Dude, I know this will sound cliche and all that but try to hold on. I suffer from a severe anxiety disorder coupled with depression so I know what you're going through at least mentally and emotionally. It helps to think of things you enjoy and the things you will get to enjoy as the years go by. And try to think of those who will be miserable without you in their lives. I hope I was at least of some help. If ever you feel down or are thinking some dangerous thoughts, try to catch yourself and then immediately call or visit any friends or family that you feel can help you or at least feel comfortable enough to talk things out with. You will need support. I hope you will come out the other side of this feeling better.
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Dumbum123 19
Dude, I know this will sound cliche and all that but try to hold on. I suffer from a severe anxiety disorder coupled with depression so I know what you're going through at least mentally and emotionally. It helps to think of things you enjoy and the things you will get to enjoy as the years go by. And try to think of those who will be miserable without you in their lives. I hope I was at least of some help. If ever you feel down or are thinking some dangerous thoughts, try to catch yourself and then immediately call or visit any friends or family that you feel can help you or at least feel comfortable enough to talk things out with. You will need support. I hope you will come out the other side of this feeling better.
RichardPencil 32
The state is doing mental health treatment on the cheap. Instead of getting some expensive therapist to beg you not to kill yourself, they'll just punish you if you try. It's "tough love!" Hope your state isn't the one that rhymes with Lexus. Our state government has been especially embarrassing of late.
gruesomehorizon 12
Yeah. It really sucks to live in Texas, as of late. #FuckTedCruz
RichardPencil 32
Ah, Greg Abbott and Dan Patrick have been so busy disgracing us, I almost forgot about how big a piece of shit Ted Cruz is!
lukey101 26
I feel awful that you're going through this and not getting the help you need. I ******* wish the US (the so-called powerhouse of the world) can't even look after it's own citizens :( Thankfully I'm not in a dark place and because of that I am able and willing to work my guts out, make great money and gladly pay high 38% income tax (Australia) knowing it's mostly used for the good of those who need it. Hope you get the help you need mate... thinking of you from afar
weirdncrazy 25
If you’d like someone to vent to im here for you
AutisticPat 10
I can’t understand your exact situation, but I know what it’s like to feel suicidal. Don’t think of living as “not giving up.” Think of it as not giving IN. Your depression is your enemy. Don’t let it win. Know that I sincerely feel for you. You’re not alone.