Today, it's been months since I dropped out of college to escape constantly being bullied and being miserable. Ever since then, I've been having recurring nightmares with the same people bullying me, after which I wake up crying and feeling miserable. My brain is a douchebag. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, despite working out and training in combat sports routinely as a lifestyle, I continue to have nightmares of those who bullied me in middle school in the past. These people can no longer torture me in real life, but still can in my dreams. FML
Today, It's been two years since I graduated from high school. The people in my grade excluded me from social activities and wouldn't talk to me. I dropped out of college when the same trends ensued and people treated me the same. For now, at 20, I serve drive-thru to people who bullied me, on their way to party. FML
Today, I woke up again from another nightmare about my university's hazing fallout. Every time I see their faces in these dreams, I remember how they got away with everything, including trying to end us as they searched for the first year snitch. FML
Today, I stumbled upon a few of my former uni classmates’ social media profiles, all sharing anti-bullying posts and adding sad comments. Really thoughtful of them, if you ignore the fact that these same classmates bullied me relentlessly during my college years, causing me to take antidepressants daily. FML
Today, It’s been six years since I graduated high school. My peers in my grade never included me socially, and lots talked down on me or behind my back growing up. My self esteem was ruined and I’ve been pushed into dead end jobs; meanwhile lots of my bullies are now travelling and/or successful. FML
Today, I’ve dreamt of going back to high school so many times, every morning I wake up thinking I finished it twice and still have all my friends. FML
Today, one of my friends got upset with me because I’m leaving our high school. The high school I have been bullied at for the past 3 years. FML
Today, I had my first trauma nightmare, about my classmates who had drugs planted on them so the police officers could abuse them for being queer. It's been 16 years since high school. FML
Today, the person who bullied me throughout my childhood eventually resulting in me going to therapy and switching schools became my boss. On top of that, he refers to me by the insulting nickname he called me during childhood. It's good to see that growing up hasn't changed him at all. FML
Today, I realized that I'm not cut out for school when I flunked out… in my dreams. FML
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Top comments
mif_fml 27
Talking about it to someone you trust will help you and your brain cope with your past experiences. I am sorry for what you are going through.
Garnetshaddow 30
Bullying is a hard experience to go through. Some people just don't understand how much it hurts. Maybe consider going to therapy to cope with the stress? Good luck. I hope you can go back to college and do whatever you want to do.
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Comments (119)
justzofabulous 13
Stay strong babe ❤️?
heyLaddieHey 18
If it's been over a month, you may have PTSD. It's not just for soldiers. I hope you still have insurance and can go see a therapist.
xivoricbutterfly 25
The same thing happened to me when I was bullied in school. now I'm homeschooled but I kept having dreams of the people that bullied me but it passed. Don't worry op it will get better
teevthoj 9
? Who gets bullied in college?
TallMist 32
It's not uncommon. There's jerks in every age group. Little kids, tweens, teens, young adults, adults, elderly. There's assholes in all age groups everywhere.
doctorhook86 25
#42: True story. Fortunately, people over the age of 18 are legally responsible for their words and actions, so the OP should consider legal recourse if it's become this bad.
ahaideh 6
You're just running away from your problems
jaxson123 3
Um what college do you go to that people bully other people? That's grade school and high school crap. No one bullies in college unless something is really wrong with that bully. Like mentally retarded.
BrotherPhil 35
Not "mentally retarded". Maybe a personality disorder, but more likely just jerks playing the usual 'pick on the weak kid' games. People with intellectual handicaps are generally the victims of bullies, not the ones doing the bullying.
walktowardslight 33
Douchebags exist everywhere. Mental illness is not an excuse for bullying, by the way. Workplace bullying is a thing, too. I wish more people would remember that you're never too old to stand up for somebody else.
danimal_crackerz 26
So sorry op..:( maybe a good friend or a therapist will be able to help you here.
caleb_9756 14
Pussy.
rinnybell210 16
Therapy could really help. Talking to someone who is totally unbiased is so freeing.
MaxG15 7
I'm sorry what you're going through, hopefully you can recover what happened to you.