Today, it's been months since I dropped out of college to escape constantly being bullied and being miserable. Ever since then, I've been having recurring nightmares with the same people bullying me, after which I wake up crying and feeling miserable. My brain is a douchebag. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, despite working out and training in combat sports routinely as a lifestyle, I continue to have nightmares of those who bullied me in middle school in the past. These people can no longer torture me in real life, but still can in my dreams. FML
Today, It's been two years since I graduated from high school. The people in my grade excluded me from social activities and wouldn't talk to me. I dropped out of college when the same trends ensued and people treated me the same. For now, at 20, I serve drive-thru to people who bullied me, on their way to party. FML
Today, I woke up again from another nightmare about my university's hazing fallout. Every time I see their faces in these dreams, I remember how they got away with everything, including trying to end us as they searched for the first year snitch. FML
Today, I stumbled upon a few of my former uni classmates’ social media profiles, all sharing anti-bullying posts and adding sad comments. Really thoughtful of them, if you ignore the fact that these same classmates bullied me relentlessly during my college years, causing me to take antidepressants daily. FML
Today, It’s been six years since I graduated high school. My peers in my grade never included me socially, and lots talked down on me or behind my back growing up. My self esteem was ruined and I’ve been pushed into dead end jobs; meanwhile lots of my bullies are now travelling and/or successful. FML
Today, I’ve dreamt of going back to high school so many times, every morning I wake up thinking I finished it twice and still have all my friends. FML
Today, one of my friends got upset with me because I’m leaving our high school. The high school I have been bullied at for the past 3 years. FML
Today, I had my first trauma nightmare, about my classmates who had drugs planted on them so the police officers could abuse them for being queer. It's been 16 years since high school. FML
Today, the person who bullied me throughout my childhood eventually resulting in me going to therapy and switching schools became my boss. On top of that, he refers to me by the insulting nickname he called me during childhood. It's good to see that growing up hasn't changed him at all. FML
Today, I realized that I'm not cut out for school when I flunked out… in my dreams. FML
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mif_fml 27
Talking about it to someone you trust will help you and your brain cope with your past experiences. I am sorry for what you are going through.
Garnetshaddow 30
Bullying is a hard experience to go through. Some people just don't understand how much it hurts. Maybe consider going to therapy to cope with the stress? Good luck. I hope you can go back to college and do whatever you want to do.
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Mr_snuggels 16
I am sorry for all the assholes that ruined your experience for collage. **** em and keep on being awesome OP.
iwadasn 33
If you threw away your tuition and your future because of some hurt feelings, you really need to grow up. Are you going to quit your job every time a coworker says something you don't like? You can't expect the whole world to tiptoe around you. Thicken your skin and move on.
limabeans101029 21
We don't know how serious this bullying was, or how serious the impact on OP was. Relentless tormenting, day in day out, is very difficult for a lot of people to just "move on" from. It can lead to problems like anxiety and depression, which are really hard to overcome. Telling someone to just "grow up" is not helpful.
HoobidibooFox 11
Adding to what #116 said is that if the person ALREADY has some form of mood or personality disorder or even other disorders, it's really not easy to overcome even if there's no physical bullying involved (which we don't know for sure).
interesting33 37
Exactly and to be honest a lot of bullying can be seen as abuse. Would you tell someone who was being abused to just ignore it and criticise them for getting out of there even if staying in that situation might have meant more money/security?? I hope you would have told them to do what was best for them, that college isn't going anywhere and that they need to look after their mental health before anything else. Bullying is abuse in my opinion.
MrSmush 19
Your brain seems like quite a pain
jawarston 24
Why don't you change schools. college in Australia must suck because I know the two schools I have been going to everyone leaves each other a lone.
MymB612 14
Aw OP, this is so sad. You dropped out because of bullies, I can't believe people can still be so mean and inconsiderate. I hope you know that not everyone is an insecure ****** up asshole. If you need a friend to talk to, let me know and i'll send you my email address. Hang in there, scar tissue is stronger than intact tissue :)
fare5600 4
Same thing happened to me, I just went to the gym. Didn't get much bigger but it built up a TON of confidence.
doctorhook86 25
#120: Plus these sweet shades, bro.
kutemotoka 15
Aw man!
Dikfitzwel 2
You need to get over being bullied. Everyone is bullied in some form at some point in their life. Wallowing in self pity isn't going to do anything for you. Go back to college, and get your education. Be yourself without giving a shit who says what about you.