Today, despite intensive therapy, despite adding a powerful antidepressant to my mood stabilizers and antipsychotics, I am still severely depressed and can see no light at the end of this tunnel. I'm losing hope that I’ll ever be happy again. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I am once again dealing with severe depression and anxiety. I go through this cycle every three months. I’ve tried almost every antidepressant available and nothing helps. I’m sick of it and sick of life. FML
Today, my psychiatrist literally said the words, ”I don’t know how to help you anymore” to me. I have never felt more hopeless. FML
Today, after 4 months of severe depression, I finally found an antidepressant that works. The downside? I no longer have any interest or gain pleasure in any of my hobbies. FML
Today, my depression has reached the point where I don't even have the energy to seriously pursue any hobbies. Any time I find the motivation to try something new, I immediately get discouraged at the slightest difficulties, and become even more depressed. I don't even know why I'm trying anymore. FML
Today, my depression has reached the point where I'm not sure if I'm even living anymore. Sure, I'm very much alive and able to type this, but I feel as though I'm just existing. Taking up space. Doing nothing. I can't be alone here, right? FML
Today, I've finally got my mental health under control after decades of flailing. I also started showing signs of Serotonin Syndrome, which is caused by my meds and could result in seizure and death. So my choices are the swirling void of depression or possibly just the void. FML
Today, I've zero motivation to even live life. I've stopped doing even the little things I like. My husband tries hard to cheer me up and keep things going, but I just want to curl into a ball and die. I'm too scared to take depression medication as it makes me fat. FML
Today, after growing up in abusive homes most of my life until last year, I'm finally the happiest I could be and I'm getting all the help I need and achieving my dreams. I feel genuinely happy, yet I still want to end it. I've asked doctors for meds but they want me to see a psychiatrist first. The waiting list is more than a year. FML
Today, I diagnosed myself with a debilitating case of vicious circle: I am now too depressed to do the things that usually manage to pull me out of my depression. FML
Today, it’s been about two and a half months since I entered into a severe, borderline suicidal depressive episode. My psychiatrist prescribed a new antidepressant to go with my mood stabilizer, but it will take up to a month to kick in. Looks like it’s gonna be a blue Christmas. FML
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cuz803 46
It takes time. Don't give up. Surrendering is a guaranteed way to lose. Keep going. Do things that make you happy without feeling guilty. Go to the gym frequently. Get sunlight. Cut people off. Continue doing intensive therapy. Eat a healthy diet. Try CBD if you don't. Just don't surrender. You can beat your depression.
Thaylok 17
I agree with Cuz803. Also remember your meds may need adjusting. The dosages may be too strong or too weak. Or the two/3 may not work well together for you. Work with your Doctors and ease be patient. These thi gs take time and you are doing a great job in getting help.
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cuz803 46
It takes time. Don't give up. Surrendering is a guaranteed way to lose. Keep going. Do things that make you happy without feeling guilty. Go to the gym frequently. Get sunlight. Cut people off. Continue doing intensive therapy. Eat a healthy diet. Try CBD if you don't. Just don't surrender. You can beat your depression.
poopface82 25
When something is not working, change it up. May I suggest weed?
Thaylok 17
I agree with Cuz803. Also remember your meds may need adjusting. The dosages may be too strong or too weak. Or the two/3 may not work well together for you. Work with your Doctors and ease be patient. These thi gs take time and you are doing a great job in getting help.
majestic09 13
It takes time. Give yourself some grace. Every thing you try is a step in finding the thing that works.
FluffythePink 23
Ask your Dr if there's any of the magic mushroom therapy trials in your area, apparently it's supposed to be really helpful for treatment resistant depression. DO NOT TRY THIS BY YOURSELF. You need to be guided through it to get the desired results. Google: Psilocybin therapy for better info. John Hopkins has a load of stuff on it now.
IHaveThePower 18
1. Call doctor. 2. Tell doctor this. 3. Doctor will presumably prescribe you new meds. Finding the right med takes A Lot of time. It's much shorter if, once you realize the meds aren't working, you pick up the phone and call the doctor to tell them this.
brose2417 3
Give them time to kick in. Also not every medication works for everyone. You got to see which anti depressants work and which don’t.