Today, after growing up in abusive homes most of my life until last year, I'm finally the happiest I could be and I'm getting all the help I need and achieving my dreams. I feel genuinely happy, yet I still want to end it. I've asked doctors for meds but they want me to see a psychiatrist first. The waiting list is more than a year. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I saw a psychiatrist for the first time. After telling her everything I'm going through, she looked at me and said "You know… every five years or so I get a case completely beyond my ability to help." I guess it's been five years. FML
Today, I’ve been on the waiting list for therapy for months, after years and years of childhood trauma. I’m haunted daily by the memories of what happened and I’m still no closer to the top of the list. I’m broken inside. FML
Today, despite intensive therapy, despite adding a powerful antidepressant to my mood stabilizers and antipsychotics, I am still severely depressed and can see no light at the end of this tunnel. I'm losing hope that I’ll ever be happy again. FML
Today, I've been seeing a therapist after more than 20 years of struggles. I think I saw him cry during our sessions a few times. I guess that my inability to live my life at the fullest was hard earned. FML
Today, I've finally got my mental health under control after decades of flailing. I also started showing signs of Serotonin Syndrome, which is caused by my meds and could result in seizure and death. So my choices are the swirling void of depression or possibly just the void. FML
Today, I told my parents about my life problems, after they forced me to open up. Now they want to send me to a psychiatrist. Don't trust anyone. FML
Today, after a lifetime of struggles, I was finally officially diagnosed with ADHD. Thanks to years of ridicule, punishments, humiliation and even beatings over something I literally could not control, I also have terrible depression and anxiety. My mom still thinks I’m making it all up. FML
Today, I finally convinced my mum to take me to a psychologist. As soon as he sat me down and asked me how I was doing, my mum burst into tears and went on a rant about how her life is terrible and she regrets everything. I was asked to sit in the waiting room. She used up my whole hour. FML
Today, after months of saying I wanted to kill myself, someone finally reported me. I can't go back to school until I see a therapist who has to approve my going back to school. FML
Today, and for the past year, I've been struggling with depression because of family life. I've been talking to my mom for the past weeks, telling her things that happen when she isn't home as a way to build trust. I finally told her I have depression and have had had it for a long time. She laughed. FML
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1known 34
Hang on. You’re on the right path. Continue to achieve your dreams, join a group such a ngo, meet people, do some sport and the year will pass without you noticing it. And I’m sure that you’ll get an appointment sooner than a year. All the people don’t show up at their appointment.
Jonkbaby 23
Friend, get used to the good life. It will take time just as much as getting to where you are took time. You are on a good road, I promise
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1known 34
Hang on. You’re on the right path. Continue to achieve your dreams, join a group such a ngo, meet people, do some sport and the year will pass without you noticing it. And I’m sure that you’ll get an appointment sooner than a year. All the people don’t show up at their appointment.
Jonkbaby 23
Friend, get used to the good life. It will take time just as much as getting to where you are took time. You are on a good road, I promise
Bill Carrier 4
Welcome to socialized medicine. Had something similar happened to me in Canada. Luckily I could afford to go to a private doctor and pay to get treatment. I was shocked to learn of the lengthy waiting lists for many pretty common procedures. I don’t know what the solution is or how to fix it.