Today, as I experienced another bout of existential dread while trying to sleep, I declared that it would be the day I opened up to my family about the full extent of my mental health struggles. Also today, I didn't do it. Again. Because I'm anxious it may inconvenience them to worry about me too much. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I opened up to my parents about my depression. Their response was to have a very heated discussion about whose fault it was. FML
Today, after I'd finally decided to see a doctor about my anxiety and insomnia, I was so nervous about what the doctor would think of me that I had anxiety attacks that kept me from sleeping a wink all night. I ended up oversleeping and missing the appointment I was so nervous about. FML
Today, I realized I rarely go outside anymore due to hyperacusis, social anxiety, depression, and sensory issues. I'm also afraid to tell my family and friends about my problems, because they don't understand how bad it really is. Looks like I'm doomed to be depressed and alone my whole life. FML
Today, I suffered a mental breakdown. I told my roommates about it, and they decided to throw a very loud party while I was sobbing in my room, unable to sleep. My Xanax prescription ran out, I have no more sick days, and I have to wake up in two hours to work a ten hour day. FML
Today, I’m trying to avoid yet another psych ward admission, but my anxiety is so bad that I’m constantly on the verge of a panic attack, and my depression is to the point where I’m tempted to stab myself in the neck with every sharp object I see. FML
Today, I had a anxiety attack about taking my anxiety medicine. FML
Today, I was literally startled by my own shadow. I hate having anxiety. FML
Today, I tried to tell my dad that I was really struggling with my mental health and didn't think I could stay alive much longer. He laughed. This comes after telling my "best friend" last week and having to wait three days for a reply. FML
Today, I finally went to the doctor's about my severe anxiety. I'm so used to putting on a happy performance around people that she didn't believe anything was wrong with me. FML
Today, I finally got the courage to tell my parents I think I'm suffering from schizophrenia. They refused to discuss it after telling me, "It's all in my head." FML
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idragosani 17
Don't mess around, go see a doctor
amd21905 9
PLEASE, seek help. In the US you xan dial 211 and they can give you info on counseling and other help.. As far as your family and friend's it may surprise you in their reaction to want to help you 100%. The hardest step is asking for help. (also they may tell you they sensed something was going on with you but didn't want to put you on the spot.
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idragosani 17
Don't mess around, go see a doctor
amd21905 9
PLEASE, seek help. In the US you xan dial 211 and they can give you info on counseling and other help.. As far as your family and friend's it may surprise you in their reaction to want to help you 100%. The hardest step is asking for help. (also they may tell you they sensed something was going on with you but didn't want to put you on the spot.
anony_mouse 5
I'm glad you're thinking of telling your family, but I hope you're prepared for them to not understand (my family loves me to death, but they simply don't understand (my mom keeps suggesting prayer and God will fix it)). I hope they're there for you, but when it comes to mental health, everyone seems to be a expert.