Today, I realized I rarely go outside anymore due to hyperacusis, social anxiety, depression, and sensory issues. I'm also afraid to tell my family and friends about my problems, because they don't understand how bad it really is. Looks like I'm doomed to be depressed and alone my whole life. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, and since I graduated, I've realized how truly lonely I am. I haven't seen my one best friend in almost a year and I only leave the house to go to work. Not to mention I no longer enjoy things I used to love doing, making me even more sad and bored. Social anxiety and depression will do that to you. FML
Today, I discovered that in addition to being an autistic HSP, I also suffer from misophonia, hyperacusis, and tinnitus. My audiologist has described me as having, "the worst case of abnormally sensitive hearing she has ever seen in her life." I rarely leave my house anymore. I wish I was deaf. FML
Today, I have no friends because I have severe anxiety and severe social anxiety. I thought I had family but as it turns out, my family is trying to get rid of me by sending me away. FML
Today, I’ve been depressed and lonely for almost half my life now, and no longer have any friends or family. I realised I often started hallucinating, most of it making me able to see my childhood and me playing when we were kids. This is getting too painful to bear. FML
Today, my family wonders why I don't call them more often. Probably because every single facet of my life is a disaster; medically, professionally, mentally and emotionally. Who wants to listen to a radio station that has nothing but bad news playing on it? Also, no habits that will get me an early grave. Lucky me. FML
Today, I realized that my YouTube watch history, which is mostly comprised of audio ASMRs dealing with loneliness and other anxiety and depression issues, has turned into one big testament to how utterly lonely I am in the real world, and that I probably will remain like this for the rest of my life. FML
Today, I realised that my social anxiety, fear of people's judgment, social isolation, you name it, have got so bad that I literally have no interests. It got to such a point that I even have nothing to search up in the internet, so I just stare at an empty browser page wondering what should I do with my life. FML
Today, my family finally noticed my depression because of how quiet, down and uninterested I’ve been. They responded by harassing me for saying nothing, calling me names, and making fun of me. Hmm, I wonder why I’m depressed. FML
Today, I diagnosed myself with a debilitating case of vicious circle: I am now too depressed to do the things that usually manage to pull me out of my depression. FML
Today, and for the past year, I've been struggling with depression because of family life. I've been talking to my mom for the past weeks, telling her things that happen when she isn't home as a way to build trust. I finally told her I have depression and have had had it for a long time. She laughed. FML
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Plop 17
I'd rather wish for her to end up like Mega Man. That plasma canon would sure come in handy to disintegrate pesky anti-maskers and anti-vaxers.
RichardPencil 32
At this point in time, your problems are not a bug, they're a feature! You don't want to go outside where the unvaccinated idiots are passing the Delta variant to each other. You can get therapy in your home, so you can be ready after the mass extinction event subsides. Or you might end up like Omega Man.
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RichardPencil 32
At this point in time, your problems are not a bug, they're a feature! You don't want to go outside where the unvaccinated idiots are passing the Delta variant to each other. You can get therapy in your home, so you can be ready after the mass extinction event subsides. Or you might end up like Omega Man.
Plop 17
I'd rather wish for her to end up like Mega Man. That plasma canon would sure come in handy to disintegrate pesky anti-maskers and anti-vaxers.
Watt Dou Cair 8
I don't really know what could help the medical issues but for the loneliness, maybe online gaming can help? I remember meeting a lot of nice people (and ass holes, obviously) back when I was into MMOs and have seen many stories of long-time relationships in virtual spaces. just a thought.. take care!